An update on my life.
I always feel like a tard when I write shit here. I have no idea why. People do it all the time, right? They update on their lives, blah blah blah... I just never could get into the habit of writing things down. But I like to write things down. Sometimes. Like right now :P Point form time!
-- School blows this semester. One class has a horrible prof with tons of work about shit I don't care about. One class has a less horrible but incredibly archaic prof at 8:30 in the morning about shit that, again, I don't care about (and her tests are piles of crap. The number of graphs on a test that isn't in a math course should be less than 7). One class is boring, the prof is nice but redundant, and for some reason, even though I've got an excellent grasp on the material I can't get a high mark to save my life.
And one class is wonderful. But at 8:30 in the morning :P
I cannot WAIT until this semester is done, GOD.
-- I'm on Zoloft. It's official: I go tell the nice people at Student Disability Services that I have "major depressive disorder, recurrent" on Tuesday. Maybe they can help me not fail school *thumbs up*
-- Justin's wonderful. I honestly had no idea what love was until I met him. He just told me that he's thinking of going back to school for accounting, and he's trying to get a full-time job with his brother in the meantime... if he starts school next year then he won't be able to move when I move after next year is done and we'll be apart for 2 years. If he doesn't start school he'll work full-time and then he won't be able to go camping in the summer. I feel conflicted because I want him to do what's right for him, and go to school and work when he can... but then he promised me a wonderful week of camping and there's been a lot of build-up to that, and as for the moving... I just assumed that now that he's in my life he wouldn't leave. He told me that wherever I went, he'd come with me... I think I'm just really sad at the idea of being away from him, and it's manifesting as disappointment that he makes these promises and doesn't keep them even though he has good reasons. I don't want to be apart from him, heh. Fuck long-distance relationships... I did that. I've been there. Now that I've had the non-long-distance relationship going on, I don't know how well that'll go over.
On top of the fact that when things change, I don't handle it well. Moving is frightening in and of itself.
-- I'm tired. I thought I should throw that in there.
-- I'm also debating on whether or not I should go to the Loop. It's Cameron's birthday... and I want to see him. It's not a sexual thing... he's a really nice guy, I haven't seen him in probably a year, and it would be nice to catch up with him. It would be nice of me to go. It's just it would probably also be horribly awkward, especially if I tried to explain anything to Justin....
-- Work is okay. Nothing really changes there. I'm more confident that when we relocate I'll still have a job, and I think I'll be able to pick up a lot of shifts over the summer, hauling things from one location to the other. Fun times. Yay money!
-- You know what's fun?? Typing on my laptop. I think that's half the reason I'm writing all this now. I should get writing on something productive... like that letter I was going to write Justin... or school.... hahaha, I'm kidding, not school. I work at 3, for 3 whole hours, woot, and then I'll probably go home and take a nap.
-- I like naps.
-- School blows this semester. One class has a horrible prof with tons of work about shit I don't care about. One class has a less horrible but incredibly archaic prof at 8:30 in the morning about shit that, again, I don't care about (and her tests are piles of crap. The number of graphs on a test that isn't in a math course should be less than 7). One class is boring, the prof is nice but redundant, and for some reason, even though I've got an excellent grasp on the material I can't get a high mark to save my life.
And one class is wonderful. But at 8:30 in the morning :P
I cannot WAIT until this semester is done, GOD.
-- I'm on Zoloft. It's official: I go tell the nice people at Student Disability Services that I have "major depressive disorder, recurrent" on Tuesday. Maybe they can help me not fail school *thumbs up*
-- Justin's wonderful. I honestly had no idea what love was until I met him. He just told me that he's thinking of going back to school for accounting, and he's trying to get a full-time job with his brother in the meantime... if he starts school next year then he won't be able to move when I move after next year is done and we'll be apart for 2 years. If he doesn't start school he'll work full-time and then he won't be able to go camping in the summer. I feel conflicted because I want him to do what's right for him, and go to school and work when he can... but then he promised me a wonderful week of camping and there's been a lot of build-up to that, and as for the moving... I just assumed that now that he's in my life he wouldn't leave. He told me that wherever I went, he'd come with me... I think I'm just really sad at the idea of being away from him, and it's manifesting as disappointment that he makes these promises and doesn't keep them even though he has good reasons. I don't want to be apart from him, heh. Fuck long-distance relationships... I did that. I've been there. Now that I've had the non-long-distance relationship going on, I don't know how well that'll go over.
On top of the fact that when things change, I don't handle it well. Moving is frightening in and of itself.
-- I'm tired. I thought I should throw that in there.
-- I'm also debating on whether or not I should go to the Loop. It's Cameron's birthday... and I want to see him. It's not a sexual thing... he's a really nice guy, I haven't seen him in probably a year, and it would be nice to catch up with him. It would be nice of me to go. It's just it would probably also be horribly awkward, especially if I tried to explain anything to Justin....
-- Work is okay. Nothing really changes there. I'm more confident that when we relocate I'll still have a job, and I think I'll be able to pick up a lot of shifts over the summer, hauling things from one location to the other. Fun times. Yay money!
-- You know what's fun?? Typing on my laptop. I think that's half the reason I'm writing all this now. I should get writing on something productive... like that letter I was going to write Justin... or school.... hahaha, I'm kidding, not school. I work at 3, for 3 whole hours, woot, and then I'll probably go home and take a nap.
-- I like naps.