Time for a very long update
there's a lot going on in my life right now and i'm finally posting about it.
1. things with ricky continue in their awesomeness. our awesomeness, really. it's so peaceful and productive to be able to sit down with him and talk things out and share thoughts and feelings and all that shit [grin]. we are great at identifying issues that come up for us and then handling them. i prefer this to drama... SO MUCH. it's not always easy but it's genuine and we don't string each other along or play head games.
2. my job stinks and i'm sick of it. i've applied to a teaching program in new york and i'm still waiting to hear back. that should happen next week. i'm excited, nervous, and terrified about the possibility. if it's offered, i have some things to handle before committing to it.
3. my health is generally pretty good these days. a persistent sinus, etc, infection has been giving me some system-wide problems, and that's taking some management to get through, but i'm doing well in general.
4. i've been taking classes at visionworks. i got into it because ricky did it a couple years ago and it was a huge thing in his life. he's been non-pushy about it and i resisted for awhile and then it just felt right so i decided to go for it. for any eye-rollers out there, this is a program that is similar to the harmony courses sayga, amanda, and others did way back when. so now you can roll your eyes at me too. i just finished the 2nd part (4 full days 9am-midnight or later) so i'm still on a bit of a training high and i'm completely exhausted. i can't think of any non-cheesy sounding things to say about it. fact is, though, that it's been really neat. part of this has to do with feeling like i'm actively engaged in learning and thinking again. i was getting sluggish bc of my boring job and no life. ricky and i have great conversations on our own, but it's so important to keep the outside world available so we have new things to talk about instead of just the old. another part of the greatness has to do with the people i've met. i'm not really a sucker for camp friendships and yet i feel really connected to the people in my group. last night i was talking to ricky about how i went into it kinda subconciously deciding i'd not get too close to people and now i feel a bit unfulfilled because now i wish people knew me better than i've let them get to know me. so that's kinda my challenge for myself now: surrender to connection. besides mystique is boring. sayga, calling should happen! (weak, i know. what times mon and tues are you available for me to call you?)
5. i thought there was a fifth item. i was wrong. i'll use this opportunity to suggest that people leave me comments.
1. things with ricky continue in their awesomeness. our awesomeness, really. it's so peaceful and productive to be able to sit down with him and talk things out and share thoughts and feelings and all that shit [grin]. we are great at identifying issues that come up for us and then handling them. i prefer this to drama... SO MUCH. it's not always easy but it's genuine and we don't string each other along or play head games.
2. my job stinks and i'm sick of it. i've applied to a teaching program in new york and i'm still waiting to hear back. that should happen next week. i'm excited, nervous, and terrified about the possibility. if it's offered, i have some things to handle before committing to it.
3. my health is generally pretty good these days. a persistent sinus, etc, infection has been giving me some system-wide problems, and that's taking some management to get through, but i'm doing well in general.
4. i've been taking classes at visionworks. i got into it because ricky did it a couple years ago and it was a huge thing in his life. he's been non-pushy about it and i resisted for awhile and then it just felt right so i decided to go for it. for any eye-rollers out there, this is a program that is similar to the harmony courses sayga, amanda, and others did way back when. so now you can roll your eyes at me too. i just finished the 2nd part (4 full days 9am-midnight or later) so i'm still on a bit of a training high and i'm completely exhausted. i can't think of any non-cheesy sounding things to say about it. fact is, though, that it's been really neat. part of this has to do with feeling like i'm actively engaged in learning and thinking again. i was getting sluggish bc of my boring job and no life. ricky and i have great conversations on our own, but it's so important to keep the outside world available so we have new things to talk about instead of just the old. another part of the greatness has to do with the people i've met. i'm not really a sucker for camp friendships and yet i feel really connected to the people in my group. last night i was talking to ricky about how i went into it kinda subconciously deciding i'd not get too close to people and now i feel a bit unfulfilled because now i wish people knew me better than i've let them get to know me. so that's kinda my challenge for myself now: surrender to connection. besides mystique is boring. sayga, calling should happen! (weak, i know. what times mon and tues are you available for me to call you?)
5. i thought there was a fifth item. i was wrong. i'll use this opportunity to suggest that people leave me comments.