School
I've been relying on education to get me out of my hell hole. This term was really bad. My bipolar disorder was acting up and I had NO therapy. My GPA is 2.9 and it honestly makes me want to kill myself. This is not me and it's not fair that like I'm getting these grades because a mental disorder just fucks my life up. I have nothing to fallback on, that's all I have. I'm only a sophomore but I feel like my world is crashing. I can't afford going to college. Without this I'm going to be stuck in hell. I'm going to cry myself to sleep over grades. Ugh this post is a mess. Just why can't I kill myself? Why won't life give me a break. This post was really pointless but I'm lonely