Introduction to My Spiral
Hello. I am new to the community and I wanted to share my story. I am sure that someone can relate, and my purpose has always been this: I don't want my pain to go without meaning - anything I can write, I would like to have helped someone else, even if in the slightest way.
I know many of you have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder for years. I was misdiagnosed for years with major depressive disorder and I never knew of the possibilty it was for me to be bipolar. I barely knew what bipolar was when it was mentioned to me. I never sought out therapy until December 2009 for a disease I have been battling half of my lifetime (I'm 22).
I never knew why I would suffer from severe mood swings. I thought maybe I was just an angsty post-adolescent or just perpetually PMS'ing. I did not know my recklessness was more than an attitude. I did not know why I developed a drinking problem that led me to be assaulted. I did not know all of this had a name. I did not know anything could ever help. I guess the most important thing I have learned was that I did not know that my bipolar disorder has fed into my life long battle with eating disorders. I did not know it could have been the catalyst and the driving force. Each has fed into each other (no pun intended), and I certainly did not think that it would make me more susceptible to a disease I'll live with all my life - fibromyalgia. I'm trapped in a vicious cycle, and I guess I have spent my life time this way.
Now I am on medication and being treated. I am finding some improvements and pit falls as I go along. I realized that ever since I have been on treatment, I am feeling more anger - and I'm not an angry person. Anyone feel an increase in anger after starting treatment? How do you cope?
Well, thanks for listening/reading. I appreciate any feedback.
I know many of you have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder for years. I was misdiagnosed for years with major depressive disorder and I never knew of the possibilty it was for me to be bipolar. I barely knew what bipolar was when it was mentioned to me. I never sought out therapy until December 2009 for a disease I have been battling half of my lifetime (I'm 22).
I never knew why I would suffer from severe mood swings. I thought maybe I was just an angsty post-adolescent or just perpetually PMS'ing. I did not know my recklessness was more than an attitude. I did not know why I developed a drinking problem that led me to be assaulted. I did not know all of this had a name. I did not know anything could ever help. I guess the most important thing I have learned was that I did not know that my bipolar disorder has fed into my life long battle with eating disorders. I did not know it could have been the catalyst and the driving force. Each has fed into each other (no pun intended), and I certainly did not think that it would make me more susceptible to a disease I'll live with all my life - fibromyalgia. I'm trapped in a vicious cycle, and I guess I have spent my life time this way.
Now I am on medication and being treated. I am finding some improvements and pit falls as I go along. I realized that ever since I have been on treatment, I am feeling more anger - and I'm not an angry person. Anyone feel an increase in anger after starting treatment? How do you cope?
Well, thanks for listening/reading. I appreciate any feedback.