frustrated
I am in love with my ex-girlfriend. She is not in love with me. I am miserable.
And when I told her this, what was her immediate response? She advised me to make an emergency appointment with either my psychiatrist or my therapist.
Later, when I was talking to a friend about my miserable state, I said that I wanted to curl up in a ball and die a little. She told me not to say that. She told me she never wanted to hear me say that.
I am so frustrated with these kinds of responses! Aren't "normal" people miserable when the person they love doesn't love them? Don't "normal" people get a little overdramatic and wallow in their pain for a bit? Aren't these "normal" kinds of feelings?
So then why, when I start feeling down, does everyone around me beat a hasty retreat and want to send me packing to the doctors? Am I really that scary?
I haven't been suicidal, truly suicidal, for almost two years. I've been relatively stable for about a year. My doctor has even significantly reduced my medication. I've made a lot of progress.
And yet, it seems like once you've been so depressed that you became seriously suicidal, no matter how far you've come since, you'll always be that girl. I know everyone means well, but give me some freakin' credit!
I'm done ranting. Thank you.
And when I told her this, what was her immediate response? She advised me to make an emergency appointment with either my psychiatrist or my therapist.
Later, when I was talking to a friend about my miserable state, I said that I wanted to curl up in a ball and die a little. She told me not to say that. She told me she never wanted to hear me say that.
I am so frustrated with these kinds of responses! Aren't "normal" people miserable when the person they love doesn't love them? Don't "normal" people get a little overdramatic and wallow in their pain for a bit? Aren't these "normal" kinds of feelings?
So then why, when I start feeling down, does everyone around me beat a hasty retreat and want to send me packing to the doctors? Am I really that scary?
I haven't been suicidal, truly suicidal, for almost two years. I've been relatively stable for about a year. My doctor has even significantly reduced my medication. I've made a lot of progress.
And yet, it seems like once you've been so depressed that you became seriously suicidal, no matter how far you've come since, you'll always be that girl. I know everyone means well, but give me some freakin' credit!
I'm done ranting. Thank you.