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So, I have a sleeping problem. I sleep a lot. And by a lot, I mean I averaged 17 hours a day/night this week, and it's been a decent week. I would probably sleep more, but my boyfriend literally carries me out of bed when he gets home from work (at around 5-7pm) and forces me to stay awake. I try and stay awake for a few hours in order to eat and get school work done (all my classes are on the Internet this semester) but will go back to bed within a few hours time.
Staying awake during the daytime is almost impossible. Even if I've slept all night, as soon as I see sunlight coming through my blinds my body gets sapped of all it's energy. Like I'm a fucking vampire or something. It just feels so comforting to sleep during the day.
My mom knows about my sleeping problem and occasionally comes over to wake me up and to take my dog over to her house. (Mini rant: Steve is sometimes in his crate when she comes over because he's done naughty things like pee on the floor or go through the garbage and she acts like I'm the meanest person in the world/ worst dog owner ever for crating him and it makes me so mad!)
Anyway, she just came over to wake me up and she was upset with me because my apartment is a mess and she says it isn't fair for my boyfriend to have to deal with when he works two jobs and puts up with me. I agree with this and it makes me feel like a horrible person every day of my life but I cannot muster the energy to clean right now. I haven't been able to since my last med-change and my getting back on lamictal. My doctor won't prescribe me a stimulant and told me to do a sleep study (which is scheduled for may) and to go to a neurologist. WTF. I know it's the medication I'm on that's making me tired, but since it works, adding a stimulant to help get my energy level back to normal seems like the only logical answer. Am I wrong?
My mom told me to "try and suck it up blah blah blah" and that makes me SO FUCKING ANGRY. OMG. I CAN'T SUCK IT UP OR ELSE I WOULD! DO YOU THINK I LIKE SLEEPING AWAY THE DAYS AND MAKING MY BOYFRIEND MISERABLE? I'm sure you can all agree that attitudes like that are the worst. If we could help being like this WE WOULD. Duh.
I am envious of all of you who have insomnia or productive manias. My type of mania is to become an uber-bitch and start fights with everyone I know. Like anger pouring from every orfice. -___-
Writing this made me tired, I'm going back to bed!
Staying awake during the daytime is almost impossible. Even if I've slept all night, as soon as I see sunlight coming through my blinds my body gets sapped of all it's energy. Like I'm a fucking vampire or something. It just feels so comforting to sleep during the day.
My mom knows about my sleeping problem and occasionally comes over to wake me up and to take my dog over to her house. (Mini rant: Steve is sometimes in his crate when she comes over because he's done naughty things like pee on the floor or go through the garbage and she acts like I'm the meanest person in the world/ worst dog owner ever for crating him and it makes me so mad!)
Anyway, she just came over to wake me up and she was upset with me because my apartment is a mess and she says it isn't fair for my boyfriend to have to deal with when he works two jobs and puts up with me. I agree with this and it makes me feel like a horrible person every day of my life but I cannot muster the energy to clean right now. I haven't been able to since my last med-change and my getting back on lamictal. My doctor won't prescribe me a stimulant and told me to do a sleep study (which is scheduled for may) and to go to a neurologist. WTF. I know it's the medication I'm on that's making me tired, but since it works, adding a stimulant to help get my energy level back to normal seems like the only logical answer. Am I wrong?
My mom told me to "try and suck it up blah blah blah" and that makes me SO FUCKING ANGRY. OMG. I CAN'T SUCK IT UP OR ELSE I WOULD! DO YOU THINK I LIKE SLEEPING AWAY THE DAYS AND MAKING MY BOYFRIEND MISERABLE? I'm sure you can all agree that attitudes like that are the worst. If we could help being like this WE WOULD. Duh.
I am envious of all of you who have insomnia or productive manias. My type of mania is to become an uber-bitch and start fights with everyone I know. Like anger pouring from every orfice. -___-
Writing this made me tired, I'm going back to bed!