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I have bipolar 1 disorder with some psychotic tendencies. At least, that's what my quack says.
We (my parents and I) went to a new doctor the other day looking for a second opinion. I'm trying to remember my medication list, but it goes like this:
Lithium
Lamictal
Cymbalta
Abilify
I've been diagnosed as bipolar for about six years. I've exhibited symptoms since I was in the fourth grade. (I'm 18 now.) It's been hell, with a suicide attempt and one threat, but I've made it.
Before I had gone to the new psych I had been having extreme light headedness and inability to really function. Panic attack? Not likely, to me. My panic attacks include me getting paralyzed from neck down and crying. Yet I sat in the doctor's office and laughed nervously, had to take off my glasses because the light was hurting my eyes, nodding off, and squirming.
He watched me as the appointment wore on and listened my story and my mom's observations. He said he would've put me in Las Encinas (a mental institution around Pasadena, SoCalifornia area) if he had a choice, but since he didn't know me well he couldn't.
Now, Las Encinas is a scary place for me. I'm no longer an adolescent, but when I was there in that unit, I was scarred. Kids were ripping the doors off its hinges to the nurse's station, booty juice distributed like hotcakes..
I guess my main question is this:
How many of you have had lightheadedness, constant need to sleep, lack of appetite, and feeling like you need to faint, all rolled up at the same time? Panic attack?
You all are so strong.
Never forget that.
We (my parents and I) went to a new doctor the other day looking for a second opinion. I'm trying to remember my medication list, but it goes like this:
Lithium
Lamictal
Cymbalta
Abilify
I've been diagnosed as bipolar for about six years. I've exhibited symptoms since I was in the fourth grade. (I'm 18 now.) It's been hell, with a suicide attempt and one threat, but I've made it.
Before I had gone to the new psych I had been having extreme light headedness and inability to really function. Panic attack? Not likely, to me. My panic attacks include me getting paralyzed from neck down and crying. Yet I sat in the doctor's office and laughed nervously, had to take off my glasses because the light was hurting my eyes, nodding off, and squirming.
He watched me as the appointment wore on and listened my story and my mom's observations. He said he would've put me in Las Encinas (a mental institution around Pasadena, SoCalifornia area) if he had a choice, but since he didn't know me well he couldn't.
Now, Las Encinas is a scary place for me. I'm no longer an adolescent, but when I was there in that unit, I was scarred. Kids were ripping the doors off its hinges to the nurse's station, booty juice distributed like hotcakes..
I guess my main question is this:
How many of you have had lightheadedness, constant need to sleep, lack of appetite, and feeling like you need to faint, all rolled up at the same time? Panic attack?
You all are so strong.
Never forget that.