no one ever reads this so Im spilling my guts cause I need to.
its been awhile...a long while.... lots of things happend. none of wich are good.
I miss her so bad, its rediculous. I wish I never came back here.... all I want is my me-mo, my doodlebutt, my celinakins, my cuddle shit,.... but I cant have ehr back cause 1) shes happy 2) she hates me 3)I fucked up so bad its beyond repair.
I dont know how many fucking times I heard a song that used to be ours today
"chasing cars"
"Iris"
"nothing else matters"
"amazed"
"you and me"
it fucking killed.
I cant get all the memories out of my head. I just keep replaying them cause temporarily Im happy...but then I realize it will never happen again....it eats me.
I know I was a cunt. and Im sorry. and honestly I wish I could just off myself over it. you have no idea
I never cheated, I was just decietful and an asshole and believe me....my conciense is eating me alive.
man, I would do anythign to talk to her one last time, see her one more time. I know sound pathetic..but its true.
"Nobody knows"
I pretend that I'm glad you went away
These four walls closin' more every day
and I'm dying inside
and nobody knows it but me
like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
and I'm cryin' inside
and nobody knows it but me
Why didn't I say
the things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a tumblin' down
I can say it so clearly
but you're nowhere around
chorus
The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
and I just keep thikin' 'bout the love that we had
and I'm missin' you
and nobody knows it but me
I carry a smile when I'm broken in two
and I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm tremblin' inside and nobody knows it but me
I lie awake it's a quarter past three
I'm screamin' at night as if I thought
you'd hear me
Yeah my heart is callin' you
and nobody knows it but me
How blue can I get
You could ask my heart
but like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn
all apart
A million words wouldn't say just how
I feel
A million years from now ya know
I'll be lovin' you still
chorus
Tomorrow mornin' I'm hittin' the
dusty road
gonna find you whereever, ever you
might go
I'm gonna unload my heart and hope
you come back to me
said when the nights are lonely...
I miss her so bad, its rediculous. I wish I never came back here.... all I want is my me-mo, my doodlebutt, my celinakins, my cuddle shit,.... but I cant have ehr back cause 1) shes happy 2) she hates me 3)I fucked up so bad its beyond repair.
I dont know how many fucking times I heard a song that used to be ours today
"chasing cars"
"Iris"
"nothing else matters"
"amazed"
"you and me"
it fucking killed.
I cant get all the memories out of my head. I just keep replaying them cause temporarily Im happy...but then I realize it will never happen again....it eats me.
I know I was a cunt. and Im sorry. and honestly I wish I could just off myself over it. you have no idea
I never cheated, I was just decietful and an asshole and believe me....my conciense is eating me alive.
man, I would do anythign to talk to her one last time, see her one more time. I know sound pathetic..but its true.
"Nobody knows"
I pretend that I'm glad you went away
These four walls closin' more every day
and I'm dying inside
and nobody knows it but me
like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
and I'm cryin' inside
and nobody knows it but me
Why didn't I say
the things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a tumblin' down
I can say it so clearly
but you're nowhere around
chorus
The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
and I just keep thikin' 'bout the love that we had
and I'm missin' you
and nobody knows it but me
I carry a smile when I'm broken in two
and I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm tremblin' inside and nobody knows it but me
I lie awake it's a quarter past three
I'm screamin' at night as if I thought
you'd hear me
Yeah my heart is callin' you
and nobody knows it but me
How blue can I get
You could ask my heart
but like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn
all apart
A million words wouldn't say just how
I feel
A million years from now ya know
I'll be lovin' you still
chorus
Tomorrow mornin' I'm hittin' the
dusty road
gonna find you whereever, ever you
might go
I'm gonna unload my heart and hope
you come back to me
said when the nights are lonely...