Fuck me..

[bipolarbear44]

I am sooooo seething right now i really i dont want to be here because i know now that i dont have enough confidence and im so sick and tired of peopletelling me you can do it over and over again and all this fucking pressure is fucking boiling over and i have to decide like nov 17th i think if im staying here or not. as of right now i dont really give a flying fuck about what ian wants me to do because its my fucking future and my my parents $ thats in jeopardy here. pressuring me isnt helping me at all but just hanging out for a long time doesnt either because it just makes me put shit off and then ill never do anything. maybe i just need a lil break one where i wont get pressured or mwont get told what to do at all because thats what ive gotten my whole fucking life...i really dont feel like im college material right now though im not emotionally put out for this which is fucking stupid because all ive ever wanted was to get out of my house and now i am and now i dont know what to fucking do. im so sick of my fucking parents feeling sorry all the time and being pressured by someone else its so fucked upi dont fucking KNOW WHAT TO DO RIGHT NOW :("""" i really hope that nobody else has this problem when they go off to college because it really fucking sux... especially when u cant trust anyone to talk to not your family.. nobody..im going to bed

Wy is it that the future never fucking looks bright even when i am positive for a long time? thats bullshit