Contemplative...
What a very odd mood i'm in today, I can't decide whether i'm happy or sad... I think i'm a little of both...
I was excited this morning as my offer letter for my job finally came through... Business Operations Advisor haha get me!
I went to a football match today! That was a little odd of me to do, however I took my little brothers, it was quite good, going to football matches is waaaaaaaaay better than sitting at home watching it. It was a draw.
I feel so wound up and frustrated today, and i'm not even sure what about... I need to go out! I have stayed in for a month solid, it's killing me, it's not even like i've been going out much during the day either, unless it's been to interviews or to the gym... ARGH! I'm going mad!
I cannot wait to clear my overdraft so that I can move out of home again, don't get me wrong, it's not that I don't like living here... because it's ok, my parents are totally cool and I can still pretty much do whatever the hell I want. But I want to be able to walk around in the buff whenever I feel like, and invite people around whenever I'm bored/lonely/just want people round. I wanna be able to take random guys home (Although, I never do... but i'd like the option) I wanna be able to stay online all night if I wanted to and I wanna be able to play my music really loud and not have people tell me to turn it down. It's not like any of my friends can come and visit as there's nowhere for them to stay. I'm going out of my mind though...! I don't like Stoke again, might try further north if I move outta the area again, although I don't like Manchester, but i'm open to suggestions if anywhere knows anywhere good to live! :)
I think being single is beginning to get to me a little, i'd probably be loving it a lot more if I was going out, but my mojo is just dormant at the mo haha! I miss all the little things like curling up and watching TV/DVD's, talking about shit all the time, staying awake all night lying next to someone and just talking to each other, playfighting, being taken out, cuddling, and of course I miss sex... I miss having someone i'm completely comfortable with and who I feel is really open with me! I just miss all the fun that having someone brings (I do NOT miss all of the shit though!)
I want that feeling that you get whenever you see them, and when you get a text from them, and when they come online, and when you hug/kiss. I want to feel like someone see's me as the only girl in the room and that when we're together time disappears and it's like we're the only two people in the world. Someone who tells me how beautiful he thinks I am and I want someone who'll make an effort for/with me. I want to go on dates, ones that end with a nice kiss at the door. I want someone to chase me a bit for once, but not play mind games, someone that'll tell me that he wants me. I also just want to enjoy having fun with someone, going to gigs, hanging out and having a laugh and not all the serious stuff! (Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't get with someone just because... I'd need to see it actually going somewhere) Someone that'll suprise me and take me to places that i've never been, and someone who thinks that i'm worth hard work when things get tough and finally no.more.lies!
I think i'd better leave it at that...
Bring on Monday and my first day of work :) Moneymoneymoney! woohoo!
That is all.
x
I was excited this morning as my offer letter for my job finally came through... Business Operations Advisor haha get me!
I went to a football match today! That was a little odd of me to do, however I took my little brothers, it was quite good, going to football matches is waaaaaaaaay better than sitting at home watching it. It was a draw.
I feel so wound up and frustrated today, and i'm not even sure what about... I need to go out! I have stayed in for a month solid, it's killing me, it's not even like i've been going out much during the day either, unless it's been to interviews or to the gym... ARGH! I'm going mad!
I cannot wait to clear my overdraft so that I can move out of home again, don't get me wrong, it's not that I don't like living here... because it's ok, my parents are totally cool and I can still pretty much do whatever the hell I want. But I want to be able to walk around in the buff whenever I feel like, and invite people around whenever I'm bored/lonely/just want people round. I wanna be able to take random guys home (Although, I never do... but i'd like the option) I wanna be able to stay online all night if I wanted to and I wanna be able to play my music really loud and not have people tell me to turn it down. It's not like any of my friends can come and visit as there's nowhere for them to stay. I'm going out of my mind though...! I don't like Stoke again, might try further north if I move outta the area again, although I don't like Manchester, but i'm open to suggestions if anywhere knows anywhere good to live! :)
I think being single is beginning to get to me a little, i'd probably be loving it a lot more if I was going out, but my mojo is just dormant at the mo haha! I miss all the little things like curling up and watching TV/DVD's, talking about shit all the time, staying awake all night lying next to someone and just talking to each other, playfighting, being taken out, cuddling, and of course I miss sex... I miss having someone i'm completely comfortable with and who I feel is really open with me! I just miss all the fun that having someone brings (I do NOT miss all of the shit though!)
I want that feeling that you get whenever you see them, and when you get a text from them, and when they come online, and when you hug/kiss. I want to feel like someone see's me as the only girl in the room and that when we're together time disappears and it's like we're the only two people in the world. Someone who tells me how beautiful he thinks I am and I want someone who'll make an effort for/with me. I want to go on dates, ones that end with a nice kiss at the door. I want someone to chase me a bit for once, but not play mind games, someone that'll tell me that he wants me. I also just want to enjoy having fun with someone, going to gigs, hanging out and having a laugh and not all the serious stuff! (Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't get with someone just because... I'd need to see it actually going somewhere) Someone that'll suprise me and take me to places that i've never been, and someone who thinks that i'm worth hard work when things get tough and finally no.more.lies!
I think i'd better leave it at that...
Bring on Monday and my first day of work :) Moneymoneymoney! woohoo!
That is all.
x