I'm an idiot and I know it
I haven't used my computer in a while cause I've been busy playing Kights of the Old Republic again, up to 33 hours, but that's not important. Thanksgiving sucked, I had to eat dinner in 2 parts, one before work with my family and my sister's godparents, and one after work while watching cartoons. Fiday blew, there were so many people at the theatre I was ready to snap. We didn't get a break all day, 12 fucking hours of non-stop work, god damn! After work on Friday, I went to Scott's house to hang out for a little while, since I haven't really seen him since we graduated. Apparently I just missed Matt, Adam, and Adam's girlfriend, Ilien( I think that's right); just Scott and Nugget( I don't remember the guys real name, it's Chris something-or-other). Scott already threw up once from drinking when I got there, but he seemed ok. I only had a little because I didn't feel good all day, working all that time and not getting to eat will do that to you. I had Saturday off, so I had to rack the back yard and change the oil in my car. Then I got a call from Scott, he was having another party at his house again. I ate a quick dinner, got my Xbox and went over, everyone was there again, except Matt, he showed up about 2 hours after me. Ilean had already gotten drunk and sobbered up, everyone else had a few shots. I imediantly filled a glass half full of vodka and topped it off with cranberry juice. From then on things went down hill; this time I remembered what I did, but on the bad side of things I wish that I didn't. I played a slightly drunk game of chess against Scott, set up the Xbox, waited for Matt, then networked his Xbox and mine together. By that point I finished my vodak, and moved on to rum and coke. I sat out the first game of Halo, and talked to Ilean till it was my turn. I did terrible, I could only hit the walls, didn't get a single point. I finished the rum, and 4 glasses of water durring my turn which ended up being 3 games. I won 2 in a row and desided it was time to go back to drinking. I did a shot of vodka with Ilean and she mixed me a stronger rum and coke. I was completely trashed and it wasn't even 8:00 yet( and I mean PM). I did a lot of stupid things, things I regret, and said a lot of things I shouldn't have said; but at least I realize my errors. I fell down in the hall way and had to have Matt carry me back to a chair, I jumped off a flight and tore up my leg in the process and hit my head on the bottom step, I fell over a chair and landed on my neck, fell off a couch laughing at strong bad e-mails, and said the things I shouldn't have but I don't want to talk about those, I'm ashamed of what I did. Eventually I passed out in a chair and woke up 2 hours later, alone in a dark room. I started freaking out when I couldn't find anyone, then I found Scott and got a second party opinion on whether or not I could drive. I went home, and tried to go to sleep. I felt even worse when I found out I can only dream after I've been really drunk, and that I dream about my much regreted act going alot farther than I should have even thought about. All that resulted in me feeling physically and emotionaly like shit in the morning. I already know how stupid I am for having so much alchole, so please don't rub it in too much.