emotions
read through a few posts after work over sunday knocked me out yesterday.. seems like quite a few people are feeling a little emo lately, whether is it because of work/study/work-study balance, or relationship problems.
The more I read, the more I find that certain circumstances really resemble mine. I dropped my two tuition kids because work is taking up too much of my time. With tuition would mean I won't have time to train for races, meet friends, go for weekend volleyball etc.
Right now, even when I am asked to go back on a weekend, like last week, this already made me very depress and moody such that I wasn't in any form to run during the NUS Run last sunday. I had to rush off to work after the race and my whole morning was totally upsetting. It's amazing how one's mood can affect one's performance.
Anyhow, I am not saying that work has been bad so far. I'm beginning to learn lots of new stuff and so on, and for the first time in a month, I actually can sit down and do something work-related. Speaking of which, I have worked for a month already. Time really flies man.
Not forgetting the first CTS gathering at ichiban boshi in suntec two wednesdays ago (I think). I missed the KTV outing cuz I had a last tuition lesson on that day. Tomorrow we'll be meeting up at jurong east stadium for a run. yeah!
I admit for awhile i tot of quitting (tt's fast i know) and go back to research. But I guess, its the initial movement out of the comfort zone that is making me uncomfortable and detest what I am doing. I adapt quite badly to new circumstances and situations. It took me 6 months to get adjusted to army life. Work life, is quite alright cuz it wasn't as strict and regimental, but i am still adjusting now to lesser time online, lesser time with friends on weekdays and waking up earlier in the morning!!!
I am beginning to think how my parents can stand working for so many years, waking up early day after day, month after month, year after year for 30 years. Am I gonna work that long too?
I want to retire at 55. =\. Yeah I'm a lazy bum who prefers not to work and yet still has an income. sheesh.
The more I read, the more I find that certain circumstances really resemble mine. I dropped my two tuition kids because work is taking up too much of my time. With tuition would mean I won't have time to train for races, meet friends, go for weekend volleyball etc.
Right now, even when I am asked to go back on a weekend, like last week, this already made me very depress and moody such that I wasn't in any form to run during the NUS Run last sunday. I had to rush off to work after the race and my whole morning was totally upsetting. It's amazing how one's mood can affect one's performance.
Anyhow, I am not saying that work has been bad so far. I'm beginning to learn lots of new stuff and so on, and for the first time in a month, I actually can sit down and do something work-related. Speaking of which, I have worked for a month already. Time really flies man.
Not forgetting the first CTS gathering at ichiban boshi in suntec two wednesdays ago (I think). I missed the KTV outing cuz I had a last tuition lesson on that day. Tomorrow we'll be meeting up at jurong east stadium for a run. yeah!
I admit for awhile i tot of quitting (tt's fast i know) and go back to research. But I guess, its the initial movement out of the comfort zone that is making me uncomfortable and detest what I am doing. I adapt quite badly to new circumstances and situations. It took me 6 months to get adjusted to army life. Work life, is quite alright cuz it wasn't as strict and regimental, but i am still adjusting now to lesser time online, lesser time with friends on weekdays and waking up earlier in the morning!!!
I am beginning to think how my parents can stand working for so many years, waking up early day after day, month after month, year after year for 30 years. Am I gonna work that long too?
I want to retire at 55. =\. Yeah I'm a lazy bum who prefers not to work and yet still has an income. sheesh.