Somedays are scarier then others...
I find myself lately having a lot of fears, I dont know how justified any of them are mind you, but they float around in my head.
My anxiety is getting much worse. I'm having a lot of random attacks lately which is affecting both my job and my personal life.
I'm worried I'm going to lose my job.
I'm extremely worried I'm going to lose my boyfriend.
My cats don't get nearly as much attention as they deserve.
I'm scared that at some point I'm going to hurt myself. It's not my style, and I'm sort of a sissy when it comes to pain, but I feel like theres something inside me, almost overwhelming so many aspects of my life, there needs to be a release at some point, I just don't know what it is.
I feel lately like my life is slowly becoming one bad decision after another. Let's face it, I've already made several bad ones, it's probably just going to go further downhill from here.
My only "happy" thing at this time is the fact I finally have an appointment with a doctor. Unfortunately it's the medical and not the mental kind, but apparently to be diagnosed with anxiety you have to see a doctor that deals with physical ailments.. Only another month and four days to go.
I'm most likely going to be late to work, or at least late considering I'm showing up early to make up time I missed due to having to leave work Tues due to a massive anxiety attack.. I really don't feel like going. The fact I had a fight with Boi this morning over the fact I think he's a self-absorbed unsympathetic rock doesn't help motivate me any.
At least I'm still alive on the outside
My anxiety is getting much worse. I'm having a lot of random attacks lately which is affecting both my job and my personal life.
I'm worried I'm going to lose my job.
I'm extremely worried I'm going to lose my boyfriend.
My cats don't get nearly as much attention as they deserve.
I'm scared that at some point I'm going to hurt myself. It's not my style, and I'm sort of a sissy when it comes to pain, but I feel like theres something inside me, almost overwhelming so many aspects of my life, there needs to be a release at some point, I just don't know what it is.
I feel lately like my life is slowly becoming one bad decision after another. Let's face it, I've already made several bad ones, it's probably just going to go further downhill from here.
My only "happy" thing at this time is the fact I finally have an appointment with a doctor. Unfortunately it's the medical and not the mental kind, but apparently to be diagnosed with anxiety you have to see a doctor that deals with physical ailments.. Only another month and four days to go.
I'm most likely going to be late to work, or at least late considering I'm showing up early to make up time I missed due to having to leave work Tues due to a massive anxiety attack.. I really don't feel like going. The fact I had a fight with Boi this morning over the fact I think he's a self-absorbed unsympathetic rock doesn't help motivate me any.
At least I'm still alive on the outside