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Yeah so school. Good times...
I absolutely hate my gym class, it's bad enough that it's gym but this class fucking sucks.
My mom said no to my doing something last night, which is weird if you know my mom. She said she has to say no sometimes.....she picks weird times to say no...she's let me do a few weird things and then I want to go to Zak's on a Friday night and she says no because it's 10 and there's a full moon...
I have to work tomorrow morning, I'm afraid my alarm won't wake me up and I'll end up going in at like 10 and be in trouble.
I'm ti-red.
I had some good times with Julie at the end of the summer, and Lee. I think I have more fun with them than I do with anyone else, or it's easier to have fun or something I don't know, but it's weird cuz I can randomly hang out with them and it's like no time has passed, Julie especially.
I need new clothes, I didn't really buy any over the summer..or for school at least. I bought that gorgeous bathing suit I never wore. That's a lie I wore it twice, but I didn't go swimming either time and it was under my clothes. I ate so much crap at work today. You can't be skinny if you work at a bakery, it's impossible. That doesn't make sense cuz there are plenty of thin people who work there.
I don't know how I feel about school. I have one more year with this people and then we're all leaving, and I can't wait because the whole point of high school is to prepare you for when you get the hell out of there supposedly, so I want to just rush through it and get these supposed "best years of [my life] over with". But this year is supposed to be fun, and I don't know how that makes sense, maybe it's fun when it all ends and we can think about the good times and ignore the bad and those few good times seem better in memories than they actually were. The whole point of life is to finish things, to get through them. That's the point of a movie, to get to the end, the point of sex..to "finish", it's sad and I don't like it, cuz all I ever want stuff to do is end...it just doesn't make sense.
I'm pretty tired now and I don't know what I'm talking about. I just wanted to update this..
I absolutely hate my gym class, it's bad enough that it's gym but this class fucking sucks.
My mom said no to my doing something last night, which is weird if you know my mom. She said she has to say no sometimes.....she picks weird times to say no...she's let me do a few weird things and then I want to go to Zak's on a Friday night and she says no because it's 10 and there's a full moon...
I have to work tomorrow morning, I'm afraid my alarm won't wake me up and I'll end up going in at like 10 and be in trouble.
I'm ti-red.
I had some good times with Julie at the end of the summer, and Lee. I think I have more fun with them than I do with anyone else, or it's easier to have fun or something I don't know, but it's weird cuz I can randomly hang out with them and it's like no time has passed, Julie especially.
I need new clothes, I didn't really buy any over the summer..or for school at least. I bought that gorgeous bathing suit I never wore. That's a lie I wore it twice, but I didn't go swimming either time and it was under my clothes. I ate so much crap at work today. You can't be skinny if you work at a bakery, it's impossible. That doesn't make sense cuz there are plenty of thin people who work there.
I don't know how I feel about school. I have one more year with this people and then we're all leaving, and I can't wait because the whole point of high school is to prepare you for when you get the hell out of there supposedly, so I want to just rush through it and get these supposed "best years of [my life] over with". But this year is supposed to be fun, and I don't know how that makes sense, maybe it's fun when it all ends and we can think about the good times and ignore the bad and those few good times seem better in memories than they actually were. The whole point of life is to finish things, to get through them. That's the point of a movie, to get to the end, the point of sex..to "finish", it's sad and I don't like it, cuz all I ever want stuff to do is end...it just doesn't make sense.
I'm pretty tired now and I don't know what I'm talking about. I just wanted to update this..