some randomness
Well, it's the weekend, and I've had time to collect my thoughts. With it being Mother's Day, it's been a good day--aside from the weird experience this morning at church. I'll never understand why people assume that Rox, my Seeing Eye Dog, is like a child to me! It's rather annoying. Yes, I do mark her birthday, but I think one reason I do that is because it's kind of expected--and in college, it was an excuse to party. I get her a new toy or two at Christmas, Easter, or such--but if I didn't, her world wouldn't crumble--she'll have my arms to use as target practice (her favorite game anyway). To me, she is a dog, who has a very special job. I don't say she's a mobility tool, because that makes her seem robotic, but she's definitely not my child. I don't have a four-legged baby, and I certainly haven't given birth to any animals. I AM NOT A MOTHER! That's a painful fact for me, because I thought by now that I'd be married with at least one child, if not two.
Becky and I were the only two women in the choir who didn't get recognized as mothers at church. We both want children, so it was kind of one of those moments where I went, "OK, God, I know you have a plan for my life, and I believe you will give me the desires of my heart--to marry a great Christian guy and have children, whether through adoption or natural birth, but right now, I really could use a little encouragement that it's all in Your perfect timing." I don't know, somehow, phrasing it like that helped me put everything back in perspective...that, and the phone conversation I had with my grandmother.
She jokingly told me she had found me a boyfrined, one of my friends from childhood...in fact, at one time in my childhood, we were close--probably even had one of those crazy kid crushes...but then, I saw his "My Space" page, and I just don't see us together--I'm sure I wouldn't even recognize him today unless he told me who he was. Who knows?
On a happier note, I put most of the CD's I have here on my Laptop, in preparation for my trip this summer. I figure it will be easier to take the laptop with me, especially since the dorm is wireless capable, and then, I've got all my music. I'll definitely make it home somehow between now and then, and hopefully, I can find the box with the rest of my cd's in it, so I can get the rest of my Steven Curtis Chapman CD's, and the Point Of Grace...and all the others, like FFH, Big Tent Revival, and so much more.
Oh and while I'm talking about CD's, I took advantage of the bargains I found at Christian Book News and bought several CD's I think I'll really enjoy. There were even a couple older SCC that I didn't have, and 3 GLAD CD's! I probably came close to adding 50% of my collection size...but most of the CD's were only $3.99 or less.
That kind of distracted me during the thunderstorm we had last night. Friday, I know we were under a severe thunderstorm warning, around 8:00 PM, but last night seemed worse to me. I know there was more rain, but the weather radio never allerted me to any warnings. It was nice, in a twisted way, to get my toes wet when I stepped in the grass this morning on my way to take Rox to Relieve. We aren't out of the woods by any means with drought conditions, and my lawn has more weeds than grass, but the rain last night was nice. I walked out during the storm to move my plant so it could get rain water. It smelled so good--that smell of OZONE in the air, and wet ground...it was tempting to sit in my swing and enjoy it--but the lightning kept me from doing that. It did make me think of Ryan, though.
I made a roast with a different kind of gravy in the crock pot today. I don't really like the gravy--it's not Mom's gravy--but I really think the problem came when I added the noodles--I couldn't taste the cream of mushroom soup at all. However, it's not fun unless you experiment a little--and I have enough roast/noodles that I won't have to eat lunch in the lunchroom this week.
I meant to write about this next part earlier in the week, but my sleep patterns and energy levels really haven't given me the opportunity to reflect and organize my thoughts. One of my seniors begged me to let him ask a non-math-related question. Since I was giving a quiz, I managed to persuade him to stay right after class and ask his question. I was so unprepared for the question, yet, my answer came almost too naturally. The student asked me if a person committed suicide, would the person go to Hell, even if they were a Christian? I answered yes, because suicide is murder, and one can not ask for forgiveness if one is dead. Then the student proceded to ask, "Well, even if the person kills himself to escape torture?" I wasn't thinking fast enough to mention Cori and the Hollocaust, but I did manage to remember the verse in Col. where it says that God won't allow us to be tempted beyond what we can bare. I told the student that God wants us to rely on Him when we are struggling, because that's when He can shine--when we are broken, God is strong enough to carry us, our burdens, and still come out looking like it was easy.
This whole thing made me think a little. I wanted to find some scripture I could memorize that would help me if I was asked this question again, but I think I'm going to have to talk to a Biblical Scholar to help--because my topical search didn't really help me much. This is one of those where I know what I believe, but I need to figure out how to explain and back up what I believe.
One other totally random note here: I remember in 7th grade, I did a report on FDR. I read a book from the library that talked about him, and was comprised largely of journal entries from both Mrs. Eleanor Roosevelt, and FDR's mother. I've been doing a project where I've been copying my journal entries in to a word document. I haven't even made it through September's entries, and already, I'm on page 36. Now, I'm also copying comments, and mood/location/music information...which wasn't done then. However, what I do wonder is how comparible Times New Roman 12 point font is to handwritten notation? I also wonder, since I read that book from a taped recording, how much of the Pioneer Journaling was done in abbreviations and shorthand? I must say that I'm enjoying reading back over some of these entries--and I'm not copying the silly quizzes, goofy LJ stuff, or take a letter and answer type things. Those things are neat and funny, but I don't think that I'll look back on them for the same type of reflections in 20 or 30 years.
Well, I only have seniors at school this week for four days! I hope we can all make it. I'm truly going to miss them--although I know they won't believe that. Each one is special, and I hope that they all reach their highest potential in life. Class Night is Friday. Graduation is May 24, and the last day for the rest of the students is May 25. And then, I'll have that "First Year Hurdle" under my belt and hopefully will be planning Biology lessons for the Fall! Still no word from JD, but I'm hoping that's a good sign.
Becky and I were the only two women in the choir who didn't get recognized as mothers at church. We both want children, so it was kind of one of those moments where I went, "OK, God, I know you have a plan for my life, and I believe you will give me the desires of my heart--to marry a great Christian guy and have children, whether through adoption or natural birth, but right now, I really could use a little encouragement that it's all in Your perfect timing." I don't know, somehow, phrasing it like that helped me put everything back in perspective...that, and the phone conversation I had with my grandmother.
She jokingly told me she had found me a boyfrined, one of my friends from childhood...in fact, at one time in my childhood, we were close--probably even had one of those crazy kid crushes...but then, I saw his "My Space" page, and I just don't see us together--I'm sure I wouldn't even recognize him today unless he told me who he was. Who knows?
On a happier note, I put most of the CD's I have here on my Laptop, in preparation for my trip this summer. I figure it will be easier to take the laptop with me, especially since the dorm is wireless capable, and then, I've got all my music. I'll definitely make it home somehow between now and then, and hopefully, I can find the box with the rest of my cd's in it, so I can get the rest of my Steven Curtis Chapman CD's, and the Point Of Grace...and all the others, like FFH, Big Tent Revival, and so much more.
Oh and while I'm talking about CD's, I took advantage of the bargains I found at Christian Book News and bought several CD's I think I'll really enjoy. There were even a couple older SCC that I didn't have, and 3 GLAD CD's! I probably came close to adding 50% of my collection size...but most of the CD's were only $3.99 or less.
That kind of distracted me during the thunderstorm we had last night. Friday, I know we were under a severe thunderstorm warning, around 8:00 PM, but last night seemed worse to me. I know there was more rain, but the weather radio never allerted me to any warnings. It was nice, in a twisted way, to get my toes wet when I stepped in the grass this morning on my way to take Rox to Relieve. We aren't out of the woods by any means with drought conditions, and my lawn has more weeds than grass, but the rain last night was nice. I walked out during the storm to move my plant so it could get rain water. It smelled so good--that smell of OZONE in the air, and wet ground...it was tempting to sit in my swing and enjoy it--but the lightning kept me from doing that. It did make me think of Ryan, though.
I made a roast with a different kind of gravy in the crock pot today. I don't really like the gravy--it's not Mom's gravy--but I really think the problem came when I added the noodles--I couldn't taste the cream of mushroom soup at all. However, it's not fun unless you experiment a little--and I have enough roast/noodles that I won't have to eat lunch in the lunchroom this week.
I meant to write about this next part earlier in the week, but my sleep patterns and energy levels really haven't given me the opportunity to reflect and organize my thoughts. One of my seniors begged me to let him ask a non-math-related question. Since I was giving a quiz, I managed to persuade him to stay right after class and ask his question. I was so unprepared for the question, yet, my answer came almost too naturally. The student asked me if a person committed suicide, would the person go to Hell, even if they were a Christian? I answered yes, because suicide is murder, and one can not ask for forgiveness if one is dead. Then the student proceded to ask, "Well, even if the person kills himself to escape torture?" I wasn't thinking fast enough to mention Cori and the Hollocaust, but I did manage to remember the verse in Col. where it says that God won't allow us to be tempted beyond what we can bare. I told the student that God wants us to rely on Him when we are struggling, because that's when He can shine--when we are broken, God is strong enough to carry us, our burdens, and still come out looking like it was easy.
This whole thing made me think a little. I wanted to find some scripture I could memorize that would help me if I was asked this question again, but I think I'm going to have to talk to a Biblical Scholar to help--because my topical search didn't really help me much. This is one of those where I know what I believe, but I need to figure out how to explain and back up what I believe.
One other totally random note here: I remember in 7th grade, I did a report on FDR. I read a book from the library that talked about him, and was comprised largely of journal entries from both Mrs. Eleanor Roosevelt, and FDR's mother. I've been doing a project where I've been copying my journal entries in to a word document. I haven't even made it through September's entries, and already, I'm on page 36. Now, I'm also copying comments, and mood/location/music information...which wasn't done then. However, what I do wonder is how comparible Times New Roman 12 point font is to handwritten notation? I also wonder, since I read that book from a taped recording, how much of the Pioneer Journaling was done in abbreviations and shorthand? I must say that I'm enjoying reading back over some of these entries--and I'm not copying the silly quizzes, goofy LJ stuff, or take a letter and answer type things. Those things are neat and funny, but I don't think that I'll look back on them for the same type of reflections in 20 or 30 years.
Well, I only have seniors at school this week for four days! I hope we can all make it. I'm truly going to miss them--although I know they won't believe that. Each one is special, and I hope that they all reach their highest potential in life. Class Night is Friday. Graduation is May 24, and the last day for the rest of the students is May 25. And then, I'll have that "First Year Hurdle" under my belt and hopefully will be planning Biology lessons for the Fall! Still no word from JD, but I'm hoping that's a good sign.