the only thing that could hurt worse...
Wednesday
Today was a good day at work, but things started to really fucking suck after I called Rachel about 10 minutes ago. She's probably gonna break up with blake either today or sometime REALLY soon, but there's a catch. She doesn't like what this situation is doing to her, so she's going to be both of our friends (and nothing more) until she decides which one of us she wants to tell to go to hell and fuck off. She wants me to wait, being her friend and there for her every need just like I would be if we were going out. But she'll give nothing in return, other than friendship. Every day I wait for her I hurt more, and she knows that. So what's the best thing she could do? Drag this out for as long as she damn well pleases. She doesn't love me. If she did she would never do this to me. This game is all about her, all about what she wants and what makes her feel good, no matter who pays or she tramples on. Paying no attention to the fact that sometimes I can't take the pain, but hey at least she'll be comfortable. I'll be the best friend I can be for her, and I'm going to let her kill me for as long as she wants. Because I don't care about me. Live to serve. I'm out.
Today was a good day at work, but things started to really fucking suck after I called Rachel about 10 minutes ago. She's probably gonna break up with blake either today or sometime REALLY soon, but there's a catch. She doesn't like what this situation is doing to her, so she's going to be both of our friends (and nothing more) until she decides which one of us she wants to tell to go to hell and fuck off. She wants me to wait, being her friend and there for her every need just like I would be if we were going out. But she'll give nothing in return, other than friendship. Every day I wait for her I hurt more, and she knows that. So what's the best thing she could do? Drag this out for as long as she damn well pleases. She doesn't love me. If she did she would never do this to me. This game is all about her, all about what she wants and what makes her feel good, no matter who pays or she tramples on. Paying no attention to the fact that sometimes I can't take the pain, but hey at least she'll be comfortable. I'll be the best friend I can be for her, and I'm going to let her kill me for as long as she wants. Because I don't care about me. Live to serve. I'm out.