Networking
Wow, I have forgotten how difficult it is to set up a network of people to hang out with. I think the last time I really had to do it was when I moved to Atlanta. When I moved back, into Colorado there was at least family here and a few friends from before.
Tho, in Atlanta I did have my wife if nothing else. Despite the many jokes I may crack, she was better than nothing else... barely, but she was. ;)
I am meeting people, but you always forget how long a process that can be under most circumstances. In hindsight, you remember people as your friends from the moment you first meet them. You say it 'clicked' or didn't click, etc. But you tend to forget the awkward pauses in trying to find something in common to talk about. You forget the fear of calling them on the phone or emailing them for the first time. You forget that period of time when you were not really sure you could trust them and to what extent.
It takes picking up from where you were, and leaving almost all of your roots behind to understand this I think. True, I still have family even if they are far away. There are still people that I would consider a friend that I could write a vent email to and they would not take it the wrong way. But when you are sitting around on Friday night (as I was last weekend) and you come to the realization that there really is not a single person that you would be able to hang out with, it is kind of an odd feeling.
I do get to see people, have sundry social encounters here and there. But that feeling of closeness really isn't there towards any of them. I feel that I can talk to them, but there is always that edge of what do I say? I can always stick to random stuff, a few silly jokes, etc. But still there is the moderate fear of getting into trouble if they misquote you to the wrong person.
This is not a hugely upsetting thing, just more something I thought worthy to bring up. Something to remind all of you out there how special a friend really can be. How important that connection really is, and how you should overlook the little things that may annoy you, and treasure the person for who they are and what they bring to your life.
Me, I'm an only child AND a gemini, I AM my own best friend. :)
Drew
Tho, in Atlanta I did have my wife if nothing else. Despite the many jokes I may crack, she was better than nothing else... barely, but she was. ;)
I am meeting people, but you always forget how long a process that can be under most circumstances. In hindsight, you remember people as your friends from the moment you first meet them. You say it 'clicked' or didn't click, etc. But you tend to forget the awkward pauses in trying to find something in common to talk about. You forget the fear of calling them on the phone or emailing them for the first time. You forget that period of time when you were not really sure you could trust them and to what extent.
It takes picking up from where you were, and leaving almost all of your roots behind to understand this I think. True, I still have family even if they are far away. There are still people that I would consider a friend that I could write a vent email to and they would not take it the wrong way. But when you are sitting around on Friday night (as I was last weekend) and you come to the realization that there really is not a single person that you would be able to hang out with, it is kind of an odd feeling.
I do get to see people, have sundry social encounters here and there. But that feeling of closeness really isn't there towards any of them. I feel that I can talk to them, but there is always that edge of what do I say? I can always stick to random stuff, a few silly jokes, etc. But still there is the moderate fear of getting into trouble if they misquote you to the wrong person.
This is not a hugely upsetting thing, just more something I thought worthy to bring up. Something to remind all of you out there how special a friend really can be. How important that connection really is, and how you should overlook the little things that may annoy you, and treasure the person for who they are and what they bring to your life.
Me, I'm an only child AND a gemini, I AM my own best friend. :)
Drew