Self-cathexis and narcissism
My original, probably more eloquent post was lost due to a crazy, unobserved resetting of my computer. However, I shall endeavour to re-create it now:
It is said, that one sees the world coloured by ones beliefs. For example, a pretty girl with a short skirt would appear to a man preoccupied with sex, as an object of sexual gratification. A man free of that preoccupation may simply see a young lady enjoying herself.
I see the world as an increasingly selfishness and narcissistic place. I can only take that as evidence of my own narcissism and selfishness. The slightly greater-than-normal self-focus that I have was brought to my attention by another narcissist, herself unaware that she shared the same trait as me. Judging from all of the people that I know of, who share the trait, it seems that insecurity is very closley linked to narcissism. Is that always the case, I wonder? Regardless, I have to at least acknowledge the delicious irony of writing a paragraph about myself and narcissism at the same time.
Regardless, I'm sick of it being about me so much of the time. It is hard enough to realise whether I am being a narcissist, let alone modify my perspective. I'm trying to be less focussed on things that are only of benefit to me. That's why I'm working at this Rotaract thing, but I even find ways to make that about me; I know that by helping others, one grows themself as a person; growing myself as a person is one of my main goals.
PS. I read a whole bunch of writing from Howard Zinn's Page. Thought provoking and well written stuff, I recommend it. Listen to Rage Against The Machine while you read, if you like! :)
It is said, that one sees the world coloured by ones beliefs. For example, a pretty girl with a short skirt would appear to a man preoccupied with sex, as an object of sexual gratification. A man free of that preoccupation may simply see a young lady enjoying herself.
I see the world as an increasingly selfishness and narcissistic place. I can only take that as evidence of my own narcissism and selfishness. The slightly greater-than-normal self-focus that I have was brought to my attention by another narcissist, herself unaware that she shared the same trait as me. Judging from all of the people that I know of, who share the trait, it seems that insecurity is very closley linked to narcissism. Is that always the case, I wonder? Regardless, I have to at least acknowledge the delicious irony of writing a paragraph about myself and narcissism at the same time.
Regardless, I'm sick of it being about me so much of the time. It is hard enough to realise whether I am being a narcissist, let alone modify my perspective. I'm trying to be less focussed on things that are only of benefit to me. That's why I'm working at this Rotaract thing, but I even find ways to make that about me; I know that by helping others, one grows themself as a person; growing myself as a person is one of my main goals.
PS. I read a whole bunch of writing from Howard Zinn's Page. Thought provoking and well written stuff, I recommend it. Listen to Rage Against The Machine while you read, if you like! :)