Intense like a heart attack.
I'm hurt. I feel so hurt right now.
How could someone do this to my grandmother?! My mother told me that a brand new nurse tried taking out her stint in her kidney, SCREWED IT UP, and she BLED to death. I want to beat the living piss out of this woman. I'm not even kidding. I want to scream at her so bad. My grandmother could have fucking lived! She could still be living right now! WHAT THE HELL! This is SO unfair. So FUCKING UNBELIEVEABLY UNFAIR. I'm hurt. And I'm so pissed. I could not live with myself if I knew I killed a patient. I'm not kidding. This is insane. Can I really practice in this kind of field? Where you kill someone so easily like that? Or take for example, B's mom. Where a nurse left a surgical sponge in her...and she DIED three days later. And Roselle's husband....where a nurse DID NOT get an okay from a doctor and she OVERDOSED HIM on a medication! He went into code fucking blue! WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH THIS WORLD!? I just do not understand how people cannot care. How can you not care about this person!? Their life is in your hands...you say it's part of "God's will!?" Is it really God's will that you're too fucking stupid to not know how to take out a stint correctly? Are you really that fucking retarded to leave a sponge in someone!? when you count them afterwords?! I'm just really frustrated. I don't understand. I don't understand how hospitals let people get away with this. like 'oh well', people die everyday....BY MISTAKE. And so we don't get sued, let's cover it up and make it look like something else killed them. Stupid motherfuckers.
I don't think i can work in this field where people live with themselves by doing this.
Could I change this field, and possibly be the one who cares?
Or will I just end up like one of those jackasses?
For petes sake, Can we get some compassion in this world?
How could someone do this to my grandmother?! My mother told me that a brand new nurse tried taking out her stint in her kidney, SCREWED IT UP, and she BLED to death. I want to beat the living piss out of this woman. I'm not even kidding. I want to scream at her so bad. My grandmother could have fucking lived! She could still be living right now! WHAT THE HELL! This is SO unfair. So FUCKING UNBELIEVEABLY UNFAIR. I'm hurt. And I'm so pissed. I could not live with myself if I knew I killed a patient. I'm not kidding. This is insane. Can I really practice in this kind of field? Where you kill someone so easily like that? Or take for example, B's mom. Where a nurse left a surgical sponge in her...and she DIED three days later. And Roselle's husband....where a nurse DID NOT get an okay from a doctor and she OVERDOSED HIM on a medication! He went into code fucking blue! WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH THIS WORLD!? I just do not understand how people cannot care. How can you not care about this person!? Their life is in your hands...you say it's part of "God's will!?" Is it really God's will that you're too fucking stupid to not know how to take out a stint correctly? Are you really that fucking retarded to leave a sponge in someone!? when you count them afterwords?! I'm just really frustrated. I don't understand. I don't understand how hospitals let people get away with this. like 'oh well', people die everyday....BY MISTAKE. And so we don't get sued, let's cover it up and make it look like something else killed them. Stupid motherfuckers.
I don't think i can work in this field where people live with themselves by doing this.
Could I change this field, and possibly be the one who cares?
Or will I just end up like one of those jackasses?
For petes sake, Can we get some compassion in this world?