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I FUCKING HATE YOU! i cant believe what ur doing to me. put my body and soul into a wood chipper and turn it on full. thats what ur doing to me. i hate that you lied to me, lead me to believe your lies, turned on me, still lie to me. I hate the way i cant walk away. i hate the way you cant escape my mind.. i hate the way i dont hate you. youve scarred me once before and you returned to open my wound and make it worse. you tell me that its"just becuase i dont want to ruin our friendshit" thats bull shit and you know it. you just look for a way out. a way to carve the wound deeper, i know when i see you two together ill lose it. my brain will shut off and ill be on auto pilot, to get me away, away from you. him both of you. why am i acting like this, this isnt me. i know why, its because i love her. he doesnt but i do. i want so many good things for her. if i get trashed in the process so be it, im used to it, used to being tossed to the curb like an empty soda can. but like that very soda can, ill come back to get you, im like pollution ill eat away at you till its to late and ur fucked. i know i be here when hes gone, i know ill be here when you come back to me, i know ill accept you. why i dont know. i shouldnt but i will