sad....
So I am not sure what I feel....This is really weird! I mean I am at home and it is fun and all but today we were watching a movie and I got really sad and almost cried. I mean in a week my dad is going to be in Iraq! I started to think how I was going to just get in my car and leave knowing he will be leaving for Iraq a few days after I leave here. It is just a really weird feeling to leave knowing that he will gone so long and he will be soooo far away. I am not sure really how I thought I would feel about this but it really starting to hit me now! I mean I am only going to be able to do so much more stuff with my dad before I go! I really hate this feeling! I wish my internship was over so I could just stay here or go to Beach Park with my friends! I never thought I would want to go back there other than to visit my bro and my bestest but really I had alot of fun and really miss hanging out with people I know really are my friends! I know that I can go to any of them and just hang out and talk to them and they would and I wouldn't be taking them from something or feel like I was bothering them. I miss those kind of friends. I just want someone near me that I can just sit down and cry with and them all that is bothering me and they just listen...I used to have people like that in my life and I am lacking that now and i just need to cry and get it all out...well ok I am tired of crying so I am going to try to write my paper for my internship and think about something else! I am ok and all I just have alot on my mind lately and I will worry until December and January...