Thoughts
Well, some people (alot of people) Got me thinkin, you know, about what I am and am not. I am nice, I guess cute in a way (thats what they tell me and i dont agree so much), Musical, i try to be funny, smart (in some ways), an individual, and overall a good guy. Thats everythign they've told me, i think i have left out stuff but you know. I am not Into religion, school, sports, drama(who isnt), i am not a jerk, ass, shovanist, or anything "evil". I have all this yet i dont have any clue as to why if girls tell me i am a nice guy, great to hang out with, and a good person to talk to, i dont have anyone that is female that likes me. I have noticed that alot of great girls get taken by jerks. This on the other hand is not me, if i started to be a jerk, or started blowing people off, i couldnt live with myself, and probably end up more depressed then i am. Yeah you guessed it, josh is depressed again, makes for all the better aggressive music. I am glad i have my music vent and my game vent. but i wish i had someone, not even as a girlfriend, but as someone that i could be with someday, close to me, there to hear my cries, and for me to hear hers. i dont know, i am just very out of it right now. I am going to get my pencil and paper out and just start writing every word down. Trust me, when its done, you wont believe that i wrote it, or that it came out of me. well, maybe you will, but who knows. Well, if Travis, Kronic, Or anyone else wanting to be in a band with a overly depressed bassist who is going to take out aggression on his bass, give me a call (466-2132). L8R