Hello!
Belated Merry Christmas and a Happy new year gwuys!
I see, so my last update post was September, which was by the way a Taiyou-centric post. (Go here if you're interested. Thank you!) Also, that was the last month of my ever peaceful, comfortable, stress-free work ended. It didn't really end like end "end", it's just that our company announces bankruptcy and handed us over to another company. We were like orphans that found a new home. But during those times, with the talks of our company shutting down and stuff like that, I was soooo stressed out. I couldn't eat and sleep well. And I was not alone. My co-workers too were miserable. In a span of two weeks since the announcement of us closing, we found ourselves working in a new environment. Like it happened sooooo fast that we didn't even had time to grieve, we had to move on right away. (FYI I've worked for my old company for six (6) years, so it's like me dying inside when I learned about the bad news.) The only thing I was able to do was post a brief message on fb. I just said my thanks and regret that my relationship with my company had ended. It's been over two months but I'm still in my adjustment period. In fact, I am adjusting to everything... commute, work loads, and bosses. Right now, I'm finding all the rules and work loads absurd. Probably it's because for six years I've never done those things. With "what are those things?" question I think I need a separate post haha But that would be more absurd if I do that right? That's crazy. Well, I think I need to talk to K-chan about my work related problem...K-chan heeeeelp!!! HAHA! I think he's the only one who's listen to me rant about these things without shushing me. T^T
Just like all the things we have at home, it's whole on the outside but it really is dysfunctional. My laptop and my desktop are great examples of it. But the greatest example would be my family itself. I guess I have more patience for my friends than I have for my family. And that causes cold wars. And cold wars make me unfeeling. Sometimes I don't care anymore if my sister's giving me a cold shoulder over petty things. Or when my mom thinks I'm annoying. Or when my father regards me as arrogant. I don't care anymore. But with this heart, I sometimes cry to sleep at night. I once said, "Yappari Ie ga ichiban." It still is, most of the time. But not all the time. So I just had the worst ozine fest and new year because of this cold war between me and my sister. And believe me it was just over a petty thing. It's just that one of us acted KJ and the other ran away. Who's who? That I cannot tell. But When will this be over? And so, I quote my horoscope, "Sometimes the best possible medicine, besides laughter, is the passage of time."
I was soooo excited about this drabble I was making for Christmas and so I "wrote" everything on my phone. I was almoooost done conceptualizing how it would end when I realized that my phone was fucking missing! (FYI my phone's not worthy to be taken away. It's ANCIENT! But still someone took it. I was wrong. orz) I had no idea how or when I lost it. I remember my firend said, "What a pity?" when she learned about the story I'm makinig. She asked, "What kind of story is it?" Sad story. "It's indeed sad." she said. I felt sadder knowing that I wouldnt be able to write the words I wrote there. They say If you really write the story, you'll be able to retell the story word for word. That's not true. I lost the magic. But don't despair, me... You're still trying to rewrite it right? By the way my working title is "Merry Christmas, Darling."
Fandom's still fun~ I still enjoy everything...and when I say everything, I mean everything! LOL you know what I mean? Yeah? hahaha! Woah Tego surprised me with that one. I was like, this is great /rubbing hands/ Hahaha! Give me 2ch people, I want to be amused by their opinions! Hahaha! XD Kidding aside, I remember one friend's comment, "You are blooming!" Little did she know I've been browsing scans, watching videos, listening to songs, etc. of all johnny's and more. And those make me bloom! L-O-L XD
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Thank you all! Have a good night! ♥