me don't know
So, I promised an update, but I'm a lil' scattered... Life's been, well, I don't even know really... For those of you who don't know, I've been recovering from a neck & back injury that was work-related... I've been out of work for over a year and a half. I'm in the middle of a pending lawsuit against Starbucks. Don't really feel like getting into it because it's kinda redundant, but basically I fell on a wet floor while I was working... Haven't been right since. It's been a long, drawn out process, but hopefully in the end we will settle and that will be that.
Hmm... let's see... Well, the one good thing I got from Starbucks might just be gone from my life for good now... Matt and I have been together for almost three years. We broke up once, last Thanksgiving, for a few months, but got back together shortly after. We met while working together at Starbucks and have been together ever since. Long story short, we just might be over for good... I dunno if we're gonna work things out this time or not, but I really hope so. I've got a lot of love for him in my heart, but sometimes you can't work things out no matter how much you want to and I'm afraid that might be what we've come to. :( I don't know. We've gone through a lot together- I had a serious relapse with my anorexia & bulimia and self-mutilation but have been clean from those behaviors for almost a year now. I suffered both a heart attack and seizure as a result of such a major relapse with the ED after what was a long time with pretty normal eating behavior. So, yeah, it's been rough... But I've been doing Ok in that department, went back to therapy after refusing to go back for over 2 years, I'm eating pretty well for the most part, and I haven't harmed myself at all. My weight has been pretty stable for the most part, although I could stand to gain a little more, I'm happy overall with the progress I've made, mainly on my own, and as a result of my own choosing. To tell you the truth, I finally got scared. After devoting half of my life to destroying myself, I really want to spend the rest of my life taking care of myself. I know I've pretty much learned everything I possibly can about recovery, the trick is utilizing those tools and I think I'm doing a pretty good job... We'll see...
I hope all of youse guys are well.... I just wanted to say a quick hi and hello and I promise I will try to update more... Much love and peace... ~Tara
Hmm... let's see... Well, the one good thing I got from Starbucks might just be gone from my life for good now... Matt and I have been together for almost three years. We broke up once, last Thanksgiving, for a few months, but got back together shortly after. We met while working together at Starbucks and have been together ever since. Long story short, we just might be over for good... I dunno if we're gonna work things out this time or not, but I really hope so. I've got a lot of love for him in my heart, but sometimes you can't work things out no matter how much you want to and I'm afraid that might be what we've come to. :( I don't know. We've gone through a lot together- I had a serious relapse with my anorexia & bulimia and self-mutilation but have been clean from those behaviors for almost a year now. I suffered both a heart attack and seizure as a result of such a major relapse with the ED after what was a long time with pretty normal eating behavior. So, yeah, it's been rough... But I've been doing Ok in that department, went back to therapy after refusing to go back for over 2 years, I'm eating pretty well for the most part, and I haven't harmed myself at all. My weight has been pretty stable for the most part, although I could stand to gain a little more, I'm happy overall with the progress I've made, mainly on my own, and as a result of my own choosing. To tell you the truth, I finally got scared. After devoting half of my life to destroying myself, I really want to spend the rest of my life taking care of myself. I know I've pretty much learned everything I possibly can about recovery, the trick is utilizing those tools and I think I'm doing a pretty good job... We'll see...
I hope all of youse guys are well.... I just wanted to say a quick hi and hello and I promise I will try to update more... Much love and peace... ~Tara