Love, to Give (and not to have)

Sep 07, 2010 15:36

 I think I am a giver of love, more like a love goddess than I realized.  This is not a good thing.  Actually, I'm starting to see that it only brings suffering ( Read more... )

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ubiquitousmixie September 7 2010, 20:16:09 UTC
I really, seriously suck at keeping in touch. I am really sorry about that :(

I've thought of you often recently and I wish I had reached out to you, especially now that you're going through such a difficult time. While I don't know exactly what's happening or understand it all, I wish that there was something I could do to help. I know what you mean when you talk about radiating love -- I am the same way. I love with my entire being, wholly, passionately, intensely, and I seem to attract relationships with people who simply aren't capable of the same thing. It's almost as if the way I love is too much at times. I've recently been away of how *alone* I am - not in the sense that I am lonely, but in the sense that I don't want to just be a singular unit. Love is important to me - it's more important than anything else in my love and I crave it with everything I have.

And while I'm a horrid pessimist, there's still a little part of me that has to hope that people like us WILL find that type of love that we want and need. I just can't figure out for the life of me why this is such a difficult process, especially when it seems to be so easy for everyone around us. Does that make sense?

I think things will change for you. I really do. I don't know you well but whenever I think of you, and what I do know of you, you seem to have such a positive, beautiful aura about yourself that I *know* will one day be appreciated by someone who deserves it, and some you deserve.

I hope that happens sooner rather than later. *hugs*

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