my dreams, let me show you them
i should have written this earlier. i'm having trouble remembering the details of this crazy dream.
well, for starters, i was PREGNANT.
or i thought i was pregnant, so instead of buying a home pregnancy test i went straight to a clinic with emilie. might as well have an expert with me, i guess lol. so i'm waiting for results so we went for a walk outside by a pond....in a hospital gown. and some car comes driving up behind us...into the pond. not only that, but a body comes out of the car while it's in the air and lands next to a boat (seemed like out of the movie "the happening"). but don't worry, he totally lived. so we head back to the hospital and on the way, i see my mom. i ran into the hospital because i don't want her to know that i'm pregnant. the doctor came to give me the results while i was gone so i asked the nurse to get the doctor for me. she said, "oh, don't worry. you're pregnant. congratulations!" and then i start to cry because i know i have to get an abortion, which, despite my pro-choice stance, is a choice i never want to have to make, and because i have no idea who the father is, mostly because i hadn't had sex in months. so i'm crying and i said, "i need to schedule an abortion," and i'm not sure why i said that because they have pills you can take instead of a D & C. as i say that, my mom shows up and starts crying only, instead of yelling at me, she holds me, which is completely unexpected. i thought she would be angry with me, but she just lays there and cries with me.
i decide to take time and think about if i really want to terminate. my mom goes to get the car and take me home. while i'm walking to the car, a crowd of people walk by and one of the guys happens to be my baby daddy, a guy named chad from one of my classes. i run up to him and somehow he already knows that i want to get an abortion. he's sad because he doesn't want me to kill our baby. i tell him that i do want kids someday. i want to get married and be a mother but it's something i can't do at this point in my life when i'm still in school. i promised him that i'd seriously consider having the baby and he seemed happy. as i'm saying this in the dream, i'm thinking about how i hadn't had sex with chad, or anyone else in months, but i somehow accept that he's the father. it doesn't really matter because i kind of like this guy so i'm happy that he wants to have a baby with me.
there's more to it, but the details are fuzzy. i woke up shortly after and decided that it was the strangest dream i'd had in a long time.
oh, and regarding the grey's anatomy episode:
hahn- stop being weird. don't cry after sex and decide that you're now a lesbian because you've had radical sex with a woman. oh, and never, ever treat bailey that way again.
bailey- i am putting you on notice. you are now my favorite character. BE MORE AWESOME
derek- um, you didn't really do a whole lot this episode except bitch and moan about hunt. stop doing that. here's an idea. have hot sex with meredith. that will make me happy. then build your dream house.
mark- i love you and callie. see if you can't find a way to steal her from hahn because you two together = love. it's so obvious that you love her. also, do something awesomely medical. i haven't seen you kick ass in the OR in a while.
callie- congrats to you for not automatically assuming that you now have to be a lesbian. you can have sex with a woman and not be a lesbian or even bisexual; it's really not about the label anyway. i also like that you turn to mark about every aspect of your relationship with hahn. your friendship makes me smile and i'm waiting for you to admit that you're in love with him. you are also one of my favorite characters this season.
meredith- i'm so happy you didn't drop an organ in surgery today!!! i'm a little weirded out by the whole anatomy jane thing, reading your mother's diary, and generally trying to be a better version of your mom. you are NOT your mom. i don't want you to compare yourself to her anymore because it's not healthy. go see dr. wyatt some more. you're not completely healed yet. but you rocked surgery today and you were being cute with derek for the two minutes you were onscreen together. DON'T read those diaries if you value your mental health. remember the hot sex you had with derek every night in season one? i miss that. let's see some more mer/der hotness. and more meredith being a kick ass resident.
alex- you were less of an asshat today and you're back together with izzie. i can't complain. be good to izzie; i've been waiting for this since you screwed the syph nurse in "much too much"
izzie- I WANT YOU GONE. RUMOR HAS IT THAT YOU MAY BE LEAVING THE SHOW AT THE END OF THIS SEASON. I AM PRAYING TO A GOD I DON'T BELIEVE IN THAT THIS WILL HAPPEN. THAT IS HOW MUCH I HATE YOU. I'M ALSO GOING TO HATE YOU NEXT WEEK BECAUSE THE GUY WHOSE HEART YOU STOLE FOR DENNY WILL BE THERE. I'M TIRED OF HEARING ABOUT DENNY. I WASN'T THAT CRAZY ABOUT HIM WHEN HE WAS ALIVE AND I WANT HIS GHOST GONE. THE ONLY REASON YOU WANT THIS GUY TO LIVE IS SO YOU DON'T HAVE TO FEEL GUILTY ABOUT KILLING TWO MEN. although i am happy that you are back with alex, i'm a little annoyed that you went through denny and then george to get back to him. you could still be on the show, just as alex's girlfriend. i just really don't want you to be a surgeon anymore.
george- um, you weren't in this episode much either. i'm glad you and lexie made up. now you can be friends, JUST friends. don't sleep with her. that would be a bad, bad, taboo, bad idea. i'm looking forward to seeing you as a resident.
lexie- you didn't impress me today but you are making me like you as a character. so keep doing what you're doing.
chief- you yelled less today. and you actually apologized to meredith for fucking up her life. i know it wasn't all your fault; her mom and dad all made shitty decisions. but her mom is dead so she can't apologize and thatcher is a pussy and will never apologize. so thank you for stepping up today.
cristina- i like that you saved all of the pigs today. i really like that. i'm also excited about the chemistry between you and hunt. i want you to be happy so you'll stop bringing meredith down. if you both could be happy with men you love, that would be super cute. hunt seems like a guy who won't try to change you the way burke did. so keep evolving and be more human. it makes you a better doctor. you're hardcore and kick ass and i love you.
owen hunt- you are also kick ass. i applaud your use of the pigs today. i applaud you challenging izzie's "life is hearts and rainbows and unicorns" stance on medicine. we, as humans, benefit from testing and research on animals. it's not a matter of compassion, it's a matter of necessity. if it weren't for animals, the polio case izzie mentioned and tuskeegee would be the norm. we would test on "undesireable" humans. animals may not have the exact physiology we do, but it is certainly preferable to the alternative. as far as usuing technology as izzie suggested, we should certainly explore that. i'm just not sure that it's the same as practicing on live tissue. but i know very little about medical technology. at any rate, i really, really, really like you, hunt. you are also kick ass. just be a little nicer to derek and mark. they're good guys and i would love to see the three of you as friends. i'm sorry you went through such a tragedy in iraq but maybe you could try liking cristina again? you guys are love. so be more awesome. that shouldn't be a problem for you.
binda
well, for starters, i was PREGNANT.
or i thought i was pregnant, so instead of buying a home pregnancy test i went straight to a clinic with emilie. might as well have an expert with me, i guess lol. so i'm waiting for results so we went for a walk outside by a pond....in a hospital gown. and some car comes driving up behind us...into the pond. not only that, but a body comes out of the car while it's in the air and lands next to a boat (seemed like out of the movie "the happening"). but don't worry, he totally lived. so we head back to the hospital and on the way, i see my mom. i ran into the hospital because i don't want her to know that i'm pregnant. the doctor came to give me the results while i was gone so i asked the nurse to get the doctor for me. she said, "oh, don't worry. you're pregnant. congratulations!" and then i start to cry because i know i have to get an abortion, which, despite my pro-choice stance, is a choice i never want to have to make, and because i have no idea who the father is, mostly because i hadn't had sex in months. so i'm crying and i said, "i need to schedule an abortion," and i'm not sure why i said that because they have pills you can take instead of a D & C. as i say that, my mom shows up and starts crying only, instead of yelling at me, she holds me, which is completely unexpected. i thought she would be angry with me, but she just lays there and cries with me.
i decide to take time and think about if i really want to terminate. my mom goes to get the car and take me home. while i'm walking to the car, a crowd of people walk by and one of the guys happens to be my baby daddy, a guy named chad from one of my classes. i run up to him and somehow he already knows that i want to get an abortion. he's sad because he doesn't want me to kill our baby. i tell him that i do want kids someday. i want to get married and be a mother but it's something i can't do at this point in my life when i'm still in school. i promised him that i'd seriously consider having the baby and he seemed happy. as i'm saying this in the dream, i'm thinking about how i hadn't had sex with chad, or anyone else in months, but i somehow accept that he's the father. it doesn't really matter because i kind of like this guy so i'm happy that he wants to have a baby with me.
there's more to it, but the details are fuzzy. i woke up shortly after and decided that it was the strangest dream i'd had in a long time.
oh, and regarding the grey's anatomy episode:
hahn- stop being weird. don't cry after sex and decide that you're now a lesbian because you've had radical sex with a woman. oh, and never, ever treat bailey that way again.
bailey- i am putting you on notice. you are now my favorite character. BE MORE AWESOME
derek- um, you didn't really do a whole lot this episode except bitch and moan about hunt. stop doing that. here's an idea. have hot sex with meredith. that will make me happy. then build your dream house.
mark- i love you and callie. see if you can't find a way to steal her from hahn because you two together = love. it's so obvious that you love her. also, do something awesomely medical. i haven't seen you kick ass in the OR in a while.
callie- congrats to you for not automatically assuming that you now have to be a lesbian. you can have sex with a woman and not be a lesbian or even bisexual; it's really not about the label anyway. i also like that you turn to mark about every aspect of your relationship with hahn. your friendship makes me smile and i'm waiting for you to admit that you're in love with him. you are also one of my favorite characters this season.
meredith- i'm so happy you didn't drop an organ in surgery today!!! i'm a little weirded out by the whole anatomy jane thing, reading your mother's diary, and generally trying to be a better version of your mom. you are NOT your mom. i don't want you to compare yourself to her anymore because it's not healthy. go see dr. wyatt some more. you're not completely healed yet. but you rocked surgery today and you were being cute with derek for the two minutes you were onscreen together. DON'T read those diaries if you value your mental health. remember the hot sex you had with derek every night in season one? i miss that. let's see some more mer/der hotness. and more meredith being a kick ass resident.
alex- you were less of an asshat today and you're back together with izzie. i can't complain. be good to izzie; i've been waiting for this since you screwed the syph nurse in "much too much"
izzie- I WANT YOU GONE. RUMOR HAS IT THAT YOU MAY BE LEAVING THE SHOW AT THE END OF THIS SEASON. I AM PRAYING TO A GOD I DON'T BELIEVE IN THAT THIS WILL HAPPEN. THAT IS HOW MUCH I HATE YOU. I'M ALSO GOING TO HATE YOU NEXT WEEK BECAUSE THE GUY WHOSE HEART YOU STOLE FOR DENNY WILL BE THERE. I'M TIRED OF HEARING ABOUT DENNY. I WASN'T THAT CRAZY ABOUT HIM WHEN HE WAS ALIVE AND I WANT HIS GHOST GONE. THE ONLY REASON YOU WANT THIS GUY TO LIVE IS SO YOU DON'T HAVE TO FEEL GUILTY ABOUT KILLING TWO MEN. although i am happy that you are back with alex, i'm a little annoyed that you went through denny and then george to get back to him. you could still be on the show, just as alex's girlfriend. i just really don't want you to be a surgeon anymore.
george- um, you weren't in this episode much either. i'm glad you and lexie made up. now you can be friends, JUST friends. don't sleep with her. that would be a bad, bad, taboo, bad idea. i'm looking forward to seeing you as a resident.
lexie- you didn't impress me today but you are making me like you as a character. so keep doing what you're doing.
chief- you yelled less today. and you actually apologized to meredith for fucking up her life. i know it wasn't all your fault; her mom and dad all made shitty decisions. but her mom is dead so she can't apologize and thatcher is a pussy and will never apologize. so thank you for stepping up today.
cristina- i like that you saved all of the pigs today. i really like that. i'm also excited about the chemistry between you and hunt. i want you to be happy so you'll stop bringing meredith down. if you both could be happy with men you love, that would be super cute. hunt seems like a guy who won't try to change you the way burke did. so keep evolving and be more human. it makes you a better doctor. you're hardcore and kick ass and i love you.
owen hunt- you are also kick ass. i applaud your use of the pigs today. i applaud you challenging izzie's "life is hearts and rainbows and unicorns" stance on medicine. we, as humans, benefit from testing and research on animals. it's not a matter of compassion, it's a matter of necessity. if it weren't for animals, the polio case izzie mentioned and tuskeegee would be the norm. we would test on "undesireable" humans. animals may not have the exact physiology we do, but it is certainly preferable to the alternative. as far as usuing technology as izzie suggested, we should certainly explore that. i'm just not sure that it's the same as practicing on live tissue. but i know very little about medical technology. at any rate, i really, really, really like you, hunt. you are also kick ass. just be a little nicer to derek and mark. they're good guys and i would love to see the three of you as friends. i'm sorry you went through such a tragedy in iraq but maybe you could try liking cristina again? you guys are love. so be more awesome. that shouldn't be a problem for you.
binda