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well, I was really bummed yesterday and we were having a party. a few girls showed up. one girl, ann, gave me the eyes when she first showed up. I started talking to her but I wasn't in the mood to be too flirty or even try to be funny at all. so we hung out most of the night, then chad asked me why I didn't look very happy.. I said I was thinking something about de. then this ann girl turned into a total bitch. oh well. I was too hung up on de that night to think about anything else or any of that. my little brother hooked up with this hot 30 year old chick. he said he ended up just actually messing around with her but nothing too serious. johnny again tried to cock block and tried getting with the girl luke was talking to all night. I actually told him to chill out and back off. let my little bro work lol. luke is fucking smooth man. it was hilarious. I talked to de today. she said that she is trying to do something that I was trying to get her to do for a long time. I told her it might be hard but that she can do it. I'm proud of her. I should have known that she would eventually figure all that out for herself but maybe I nudged her in that direction a little more. she needs to find out the end result of it, just so she can know for herself whether what the doctors told her before was right or not. I hope she doesn't give up when it gets hard though, but I think she's changed with stuff like that. I know she can do it. I think we both learned a lot from the relationship. even if it didn't work out, it makes me feel good to think that maybe we're better people because of it. she made me a lot more social. there's other stuff too that it all made me realize.. things that are for the better and I love her for that.