the letter I'll never send
You are not worthy of my feelings, emotions, or even my love. Even with everything that you've said to me, I am still so confused on how and why things ended up the way they did. If you could help me understand why you did what you did, it was still an incredibly shitty thing to do to someone, especially to someone you claim to "care about so much." I didn't think you had it in your heart to be so careless but you've proved me completely wrong. Maybe you really do think what you did is an acceptable thing to do. Or maybe you really felt something then got scared and confused and were just looking for an excuse. Or maybe you were just completely taking advantage of me. Whatever excuse you have for me, it's not going to make me feel any better about what you did to me. You are obviously not capable of watching out for my feelings and that carries a lot of weight in terms of how I see you as a person and as a friend. Even if you really didn't mean to hurt me, I don't think continuing a friendship is worth the risk of me getting hurt again. You got close to me and you blew it. Unfortunately that leaves me to pick up the pieces but I will pick up the pieces and this feeling will pass.