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im feeling very alone and secluded right now. i forgot i wanted to go to piazza nevona tonight to get the watercolor paintings for aunt susan. i could go tomorrow, but i wanted to do work all day tomorrow. i need to get this design and fashion fig drawing stuff figured out. i cant procrastinate anymore on it. i also need to get my outline and thesis finished for history of ancient rome. i wanna hand him a copy of the outline so he can give me feedback on the structure of the paper before i even start on it. i basically feel very unwanted right now. i mean, my roommates didnt even notice my new haircut. i feel like im invisible and dont matter in the scheme of things. no one cares that im here expect for me. but i think that matters, that i care about my presence. i need to remember that these people might not care about my existence, especially since i cant clean good enough for them, but people at home care. i think jessica, even though shes very independent and doesnt express her emotions well, cares that im around. laura seems to really be a kindred spirit if you ask me. as long as these people care and more importantly i care about me, i think ill be good. im in rome, i mean how much better do i get. im realizing that i love this city now, even with its crowded buses and smelly people. thats what makes this city rome. rome isnt beautiful b/c it has so many wonderful ruins and architecture and art, its the atmosphere here that really is wonderful. i dont think any other city in the world has it.
im stuck on my design again now. i think i want to pick out fabrics at this point. maybe i should move to my fashion figure drawing project? i think im approaching this project all wrong. yes, im supposed to design in the house's style, but im also supposed to fuse it with my own. if my style calls for so more interesting textiles or different colors, then y not use it a bit. i think i want to use blood red for my collection. just the bold richness of the color and fabric choices i know i have now are beautiful. i feel like designing right now, but not for the projects. i should just sit down and design for myself and maybe ill come up with something that i can use in these projects. ok, im going to go work on this. people should call me in rome so i feel important. 011 39 06 9760 2709. oh well, at least next weekend ill be in germany with my aunt and uncle, whom i know care and will show interest in whats going on in my life. ciao ragazzi, buenasera.
im stuck on my design again now. i think i want to pick out fabrics at this point. maybe i should move to my fashion figure drawing project? i think im approaching this project all wrong. yes, im supposed to design in the house's style, but im also supposed to fuse it with my own. if my style calls for so more interesting textiles or different colors, then y not use it a bit. i think i want to use blood red for my collection. just the bold richness of the color and fabric choices i know i have now are beautiful. i feel like designing right now, but not for the projects. i should just sit down and design for myself and maybe ill come up with something that i can use in these projects. ok, im going to go work on this. people should call me in rome so i feel important. 011 39 06 9760 2709. oh well, at least next weekend ill be in germany with my aunt and uncle, whom i know care and will show interest in whats going on in my life. ciao ragazzi, buenasera.