AHHHH!
This is the third time i have to type this. So i woke today to my mom, the one person i never want to wake to again. Aparently she went to cali, slit her rist, got out of the hospital, and wants to come back and pretend nothing happend. i dont resent her for running away because ive done the same thing. but i call and let people no im safe and take the time to breath and vacate. she used the time to slit her wrists and never called. if she gets a job and a house near pinckney (steph) ill move back in with her and block this out. if she doesnt then fuck her. i miss steph. i miss all my friends but exspeshaly denise and STEPH. AHHHHH my head herts. Now im sorry for making steph question her hole beliefe system because it all seems to be working out in the end SORRY! i might see my mom tomar and i cant stop thinking what my first words should be. it still looks like ill be up here the second.
On a happy note. i dug and burried dog shit from 3 to 8 today. the smell alone made me fraget my other problems. i might get to go tubing tomar. im less deressed up until the second time i had to type this. i havent drank or smoked since early sunday. its helped me think. and so far i get to see denise and steph my two favriot people on the second.
Two better days when this is funny
Two better days when i can laugh
Two better days
On a happy note. i dug and burried dog shit from 3 to 8 today. the smell alone made me fraget my other problems. i might get to go tubing tomar. im less deressed up until the second time i had to type this. i havent drank or smoked since early sunday. its helped me think. and so far i get to see denise and steph my two favriot people on the second.
Two better days when this is funny
Two better days when i can laugh
Two better days