maybe I knew before I knew...
It is really funny how sometimes things from your past will come into your memory at the oddest times. I had just finished eating dinner and was leaving to go home when all of a sudden a memory from a year at summer camp popped into my head. As a kid my parents would send us to a church camp. Ironically, I probably learn more bad stuff at church camp than good. 1 memory that came to mind is when our cabin got raided by another cabin. I remember then having put toothpaste on all of our beds . They had also gotten into the counselors room and destroyed everything in there. They emptied out the shaving cream of my counselor named Jeff. In hindsight I actually had a bit of a crush on Jeff. I realize that now reflecting upon it. I guess I was probably about 10 or 11 at the time. So it looks like I actually should have known I was gay before I actually realized it especially looking back on that particular incident. I don't remember actually wanting to see him naked. But then again even in high school I really just wanted to see the boys in their underwear. I really wasn't interested in seeing what was under them at the time. Kinda funny how random things will hit your head.
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