Friends...
This is likely to sound bad but hell, I've been a bitch a lot as of late (and I believe that I am entitled in it.)
Today I got home and was sitting Geisha's room after she made a comment to me and it hit me....
I need to start editing the friends that are in my life. Not the "electronic" ones. The ones that are in the flesh. One basically mooches off of me. Another just wants me around for their drama and shit like that. Another, I am not at all sure what the hell is up with that.
I sat here thinking about how although they have been there at times, their selfishness and I guess greed have caused me a lot of drama and have cost me some things too. It might be time to start seeking out and making some new ones.
I have a coworker named Elisa. She and I get along pretty good. She was in a situation similar to Travis and me. The difference is that they have a child together so she has to stay in touch for the kid. Her advice has aways been that I needed to stop talking to him. Stop having anything to do with him. She is not the only one who has said this. Won't name any other names here cause I don't wanna stir any more shit than I already have. Lisa (as we call her) and I were valentines for each other since we are single. (This was before I found out that Travis had actually got me anything.) I don't know why, I just feel a connection with her for some reason. She even brought me a piece of the quiche that she made last night for dinner. It was good as hell too. Might need to make that myself sometime. Something about talking to her generally puts me at ease. She leaves most nights as Travis calls me at work and she is hilarious. Calling me stuff like hooch and ho and stuff like that. She kids with me telling me that she can always tell when he calls because I get all giddy. (Not been too true as of late.) She helps me keep myself in check, with my diabetes (she has it too,) Travis and many other things. I think it is funny that I have always connected to black women for the most part. Even in high school, the people I talked to the most (other than adults) were the black females. Maybe should have known something then, huh? hehe.
One thing that pisses me off is in many cases, I will listen to them talk and whine about their roommates, partners, lovers, family, money, life, animals, etc and when it comes time for me to say something about something that I am having an issue with, they cannot be bothered or can only lend half an ear but expect me to be there for them. That or they just turn the subject back on themselves. One of them, I have kinda decided to quiet contact with. I kinda already have.
Well, gonna close this out. I have to admit that I have been a bitch to some people a lot lately and I'm not really gonna apologize for that. It is how I have become. It is the way that life has shaped me. Maybe it is for the best. If I stay a bitch then I can't get hurt. If I stay a bitch people will respect me more. When you are nice, people just run you over. They take advantage of you and mooch off of you. I have been thinking about calling in a couple of loans that I have made, etc because my bills ain't paying themselves. I think I have said enough.
Today I got home and was sitting Geisha's room after she made a comment to me and it hit me....
I need to start editing the friends that are in my life. Not the "electronic" ones. The ones that are in the flesh. One basically mooches off of me. Another just wants me around for their drama and shit like that. Another, I am not at all sure what the hell is up with that.
I sat here thinking about how although they have been there at times, their selfishness and I guess greed have caused me a lot of drama and have cost me some things too. It might be time to start seeking out and making some new ones.
I have a coworker named Elisa. She and I get along pretty good. She was in a situation similar to Travis and me. The difference is that they have a child together so she has to stay in touch for the kid. Her advice has aways been that I needed to stop talking to him. Stop having anything to do with him. She is not the only one who has said this. Won't name any other names here cause I don't wanna stir any more shit than I already have. Lisa (as we call her) and I were valentines for each other since we are single. (This was before I found out that Travis had actually got me anything.) I don't know why, I just feel a connection with her for some reason. She even brought me a piece of the quiche that she made last night for dinner. It was good as hell too. Might need to make that myself sometime. Something about talking to her generally puts me at ease. She leaves most nights as Travis calls me at work and she is hilarious. Calling me stuff like hooch and ho and stuff like that. She kids with me telling me that she can always tell when he calls because I get all giddy. (Not been too true as of late.) She helps me keep myself in check, with my diabetes (she has it too,) Travis and many other things. I think it is funny that I have always connected to black women for the most part. Even in high school, the people I talked to the most (other than adults) were the black females. Maybe should have known something then, huh? hehe.
One thing that pisses me off is in many cases, I will listen to them talk and whine about their roommates, partners, lovers, family, money, life, animals, etc and when it comes time for me to say something about something that I am having an issue with, they cannot be bothered or can only lend half an ear but expect me to be there for them. That or they just turn the subject back on themselves. One of them, I have kinda decided to quiet contact with. I kinda already have.
Well, gonna close this out. I have to admit that I have been a bitch to some people a lot lately and I'm not really gonna apologize for that. It is how I have become. It is the way that life has shaped me. Maybe it is for the best. If I stay a bitch then I can't get hurt. If I stay a bitch people will respect me more. When you are nice, people just run you over. They take advantage of you and mooch off of you. I have been thinking about calling in a couple of loans that I have made, etc because my bills ain't paying themselves. I think I have said enough.