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did get tg cards and flowers yesterday... glad i did...
hard day... did journal in afternoon... paper... real world...
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trying to rise from the life-long ashes of myself... ...
be myself... be me... exist with me...
not be reliant on others to define me, ... not, ... seek others to approve of me, validate me, etc, etc... ... takes a long time, ... and longer, still to come,... to understand the depth of those words, ... statements... ...
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i think, we do hear words, phrases, intelligent commentary, on existence, and trying to rise above... ... but, i think the truth ... the real, hard-core truth, ... takes a long time to get to... we do have these 'a-ha' moments... and then, we become disillusioned, because we want that understanding to be full, complete... we want to be filled, and fulfilled... by that initial child-like epiphany... ...
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i think, we have to experience that epiphany over and over again... ...
deeper, each time, ... greater understanding each time... ...
it is difficult, to have ... patience ... until we arrive at that next realization... ...
but then... such is growth... ...
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oy... ...
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and, ... also... to learn to let what is be... ...
peace... thanksgiving... ...
hard day... did journal in afternoon... paper... real world...
...
trying to rise from the life-long ashes of myself... ...
be myself... be me... exist with me...
not be reliant on others to define me, ... not, ... seek others to approve of me, validate me, etc, etc... ... takes a long time, ... and longer, still to come,... to understand the depth of those words, ... statements... ...
...
i think, we do hear words, phrases, intelligent commentary, on existence, and trying to rise above... ... but, i think the truth ... the real, hard-core truth, ... takes a long time to get to... we do have these 'a-ha' moments... and then, we become disillusioned, because we want that understanding to be full, complete... we want to be filled, and fulfilled... by that initial child-like epiphany... ...
...
i think, we have to experience that epiphany over and over again... ...
deeper, each time, ... greater understanding each time... ...
it is difficult, to have ... patience ... until we arrive at that next realization... ...
but then... such is growth... ...
...
oy... ...
...
and, ... also... to learn to let what is be... ...
peace... thanksgiving... ...