I can't take the dark
I can't sleep. I can't take the quiet time alone with my thoughts. Every one is of her. There just has to be an explanation other than what I have been given, cause I don't know how to handle the thought of never being with her. I need to type just to keep from shaking. How can I be alone in this, she has to feel the same way. Tell me she is afraid of something. That there is some reason that she is just not ready for this, but it will come later. I wish I lived at home still, I wish I felt the pain my father has caused me in the past. That would feel better than this, that I knew how to handle. I want to sleep so bad so I can't think. How can someone be the best and worst thing that has ever happened to you? I don't know how to handle this. Please help me understand how to handle this.