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An additional thought to the previous post. There are a lot of things that can haunt you when something like that happenes. Did she die happy, did she suffer, was she in pain. none of those things haunt me. I know she was in pain, she chose to be, and chose to do it quietly and stoically. She is an amazing woman. Was she happy when she died, everything inside of me says she was, so there is no doubt or worry there. Was it a peaceful passing, i would say yes. On her last day she was in and out a lot, sleeping off and on. She told me that everytime she would dream she was visint some amazing place, Hawaii, Virginia, she was going all over the US. So i take console knowing that he last moments of life were probably spent in New Mexico or something and she passed peacefully.
There is one thing that Haunts me. I hope she got some enjoyment out of her last meals. The Cancer had spread very far, and she could barely eat anything. So she didn't eat much of the meals, but i hope that was she did eat was yummy. I think this is what haunts me because the meals i braught to her in that last week were some of the last things i was able to do for her, and i hope that they brought her some happiness. I know she was exceptionally happy for Evert her and I to be together, and enjoy each others company, but there is part of me that still wonders if she enjoyed those meals.
There is one thing that Haunts me. I hope she got some enjoyment out of her last meals. The Cancer had spread very far, and she could barely eat anything. So she didn't eat much of the meals, but i hope that was she did eat was yummy. I think this is what haunts me because the meals i braught to her in that last week were some of the last things i was able to do for her, and i hope that they brought her some happiness. I know she was exceptionally happy for Evert her and I to be together, and enjoy each others company, but there is part of me that still wonders if she enjoyed those meals.