AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you know....I LOVE YOU GUYS!!...too much.....^.^ <3 ; p
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I AM BACK!!!!!!!
did ya miss me?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
ok so i am here for a bit longer.
first things first.
HI! i am a kid who is gunna rant about her life. if you know its me...GOOD! if you wanna tell my dad...dont...he will just get mad and stuff like that. and i get the heat so please dont.
NEXT!!! yes this is all real...this is me ranting...dont like that..DONT READ!
why am i comeing back?!?!?!
because all my friends are here and i was being selfish and blah blah blah....so yea
now this is the letter my dad sent me and bryce.
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Mary-Kate & Bryce,
Now that I’ve cleared the air about what’s been bothering me. Let me again state. It’s not what you feel…that’s you. That’s what makes you uniquely you. Choosing your avenues to express yourself is what is important. As I said, name calling and someone hearing about something second hand is much more hurtful than saying it out front to the person/people involved. Both of you, I’m certain have experienced that within your circle of acquaintances. I have not told anyone else about your writing. Nor will I ever, that’s not my place and I will never hold that as a threat against you, potential or otherwise.
It may have been better had I remained blissfully unaware of your public comments. But now that’s it’s out there-it’s out there. You can express your anger, thoughts, fears, frustrations to your friends, other family members, the cats, to whomever and anytime you wish. I wish our family had the capacity to talk to each other rather than talk around each other. Optimistically, I hope this collective crisis changes that and talking will become a matter of fact rather than a hopeful event. Direct discussion is more likely to be met with discussion rather than hurt feelings and a feeling of being deceived.
I only ask that whatever/wherever you do, do something safe for yourself and others. You can be angry with me …or not. That’s your decision. You can talk to me…or not. That’s your decision. I will try and always talk to you, the next step is yours.
As your parent, I will always be willing to offer you what I can. To Mary-Kate: I will not abandon what I have promised myself and that is to be here in this house, in this town, for at least through your high school years. After that, it may or may not change, that depends on day to day/year to year opportunities, obligations, jobs, etc. When it does change (and yes I do not intend to remain in Southern California forever), you will always have a place with me if you need it wherever I am. To Bryce: The promise is the same except yours begins after high school instead of before.
To both of you: I’m proud of your accomplishments, your abilities, your sense of humor, your individualism, and how I see you care for others in your circles. Now, add talking to that…or at least, begin to add it on. All in all I think we’ll have a better relationship at the end of you adolescence (most parent/child relationships grow better after the barriers of teenage-hood fall.
Please, please, please. Do not be afraid to talk to me. Whatever was was. What is now is now. For whatever that statement is worth, I’ve said it.
I will always be your parent. I will always love you. We may have our differences and may not “like” each other at any one point in time, but you will always be loved even if I totally disagree with you.
Do you have to reveal your inner most thoughts to me? No, only what you feel you can or feel you want to. If you choose to change anything, do so. If you feel you want to have it remain the same, leave it the same. I’m through with looking and will not look or listen to whatever anyone has to say about any type of journal. Again, I only ask you to be mindful and careful of others and yourselves and any potential harm that may come from that.
As to the house (current and future), I do expect chores and responsibilities to be completed. Everyone has chores and responsibilities in life. I expect that legitimate things you are asked to do, be done (at home, school, and society) in a timely fashion. I ask that you treat everyone with respect-even if you vehemently disagree with them. I expect you to seek friends, family, or professionals for advice should you need it. But always look at their advice from where they are coming from. Do they have any agendas with their advice and can you live with their agendas?
Whatever decisions you make in your lives always affects everyone who has ever met you. Will you please everyone - never. Simply put, live honorably, associate with honorable people, treat yourself and others honorably. You'll never go wrong with that.
I will be making changes around this house because I need/want to. Should I have changed some things sooner? Most definitely. Will I make changes in the future? Most definitely, as long as I’m alive, everything in life is ever-changing. Will I be making changes in conjunction with other people? Most definitely. As long as I interact with someone, changes are made. Will/are things different now, yes you bet they are. Will it be better than before? I am certainly banking on that. Does that mean all of us have to change somewhat? Yes it does because we are alive and living is dynamic.
Will I be making changes in consultation with Nancy? You bet I will. We are joining our lives in a partnership. There will be changes. Will there be changes in consultation with your mom? You bet there will be. We have rights and responsibilities as your parents that will constantly need adjustment. Hopefully it will all be done respectively and with the outcome the best for all involved.
Will I always be here for you? Physically as long as I’m alive, most definitely yes. Spiritually/mentally? Ss long as there is a memory or if there is a spirit I will be there in some fashion for you. And you will always be here with me spiritually and mentally.
We go forward from here. Will you join me?
With my utmost love,
Dad.
PS I feel a lot calmer now...I found my ring. It had somehow fallen into a box that ended up in the storage unit. I will never figure out how it got there...but it did. As to whether you choose to save, share, or delete this...it is your decision alone. I will not bring it up. I am just sending it. If you wish to talk (with no argument on either side) to me about it, I'll make the time available.
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ok so here are my notes. dad lost the ring and founf=d livejournal so....yea
"Will I always be here for you? Physically as long as I’m alive, most definitely yes. Spiritually/mentally? Ss long as there is a memory or if there is a spirit I will be there in some fashion for you. And you will always be here with me spiritually and mentally. "
you know he wouldn't have said that if i hadn'y screamed that i always see him and that was it. never really talked blah blah...yea....
As your parent, I will always be willing to offer you what I can. To Mary-Kate: I will not abandon what I have promised myself and that is to be here in this house, in this town, for at least through your high school years. After that, it may or may not change, that depends on day to day/year to year opportunities, obligations, jobs, etc. When it does change (and yes I do not intend to remain in Southern California forever), you will always have a place with me if you need it wherever I am. To Bryce: The promise is the same except yours begins after high school instead of before."
yea you see...he doesn't like it here...so he is gunna move after my high school years.....JOY!!! i still lose the house...SO dad...JUST GO AND FUCKING MOVE!!! don't stay for my sake...i mean....NOW you care? *shakes head*
ok now onto a new thing. my mom is going to my dads wedding...shes going for me and bryce. TO me i think its so she can prove that she and dad are still friends. BUT HAS TO RUIN IT!!!! dad isnt going to my moms wedding...i know that they split and it will be uncomfortable, but....*screams and ounchs wall* come on!!! support hjer damnit!!! if you are her friend...show up!!! main reason why...MY MOM IS GAY!!!! if he doesnt wanna show up...i think there is 2 reasons.
1)cant see your ex-wife with a girl
2) you dont except her
now if its tha last one i will slap him hard.
well....here it is....what i have held in for a while.
"Wake Me Up When September Ends"
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends
like my fathers come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are
as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends
summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends
ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when september ends
here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are
as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends
like my father's come to pass
twenty years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends
I AM BACK!!!!!!!
did ya miss me?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
ok so i am here for a bit longer.
first things first.
HI! i am a kid who is gunna rant about her life. if you know its me...GOOD! if you wanna tell my dad...dont...he will just get mad and stuff like that. and i get the heat so please dont.
NEXT!!! yes this is all real...this is me ranting...dont like that..DONT READ!
why am i comeing back?!?!?!
because all my friends are here and i was being selfish and blah blah blah....so yea
now this is the letter my dad sent me and bryce.
::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Mary-Kate & Bryce,
Now that I’ve cleared the air about what’s been bothering me. Let me again state. It’s not what you feel…that’s you. That’s what makes you uniquely you. Choosing your avenues to express yourself is what is important. As I said, name calling and someone hearing about something second hand is much more hurtful than saying it out front to the person/people involved. Both of you, I’m certain have experienced that within your circle of acquaintances. I have not told anyone else about your writing. Nor will I ever, that’s not my place and I will never hold that as a threat against you, potential or otherwise.
It may have been better had I remained blissfully unaware of your public comments. But now that’s it’s out there-it’s out there. You can express your anger, thoughts, fears, frustrations to your friends, other family members, the cats, to whomever and anytime you wish. I wish our family had the capacity to talk to each other rather than talk around each other. Optimistically, I hope this collective crisis changes that and talking will become a matter of fact rather than a hopeful event. Direct discussion is more likely to be met with discussion rather than hurt feelings and a feeling of being deceived.
I only ask that whatever/wherever you do, do something safe for yourself and others. You can be angry with me …or not. That’s your decision. You can talk to me…or not. That’s your decision. I will try and always talk to you, the next step is yours.
As your parent, I will always be willing to offer you what I can. To Mary-Kate: I will not abandon what I have promised myself and that is to be here in this house, in this town, for at least through your high school years. After that, it may or may not change, that depends on day to day/year to year opportunities, obligations, jobs, etc. When it does change (and yes I do not intend to remain in Southern California forever), you will always have a place with me if you need it wherever I am. To Bryce: The promise is the same except yours begins after high school instead of before.
To both of you: I’m proud of your accomplishments, your abilities, your sense of humor, your individualism, and how I see you care for others in your circles. Now, add talking to that…or at least, begin to add it on. All in all I think we’ll have a better relationship at the end of you adolescence (most parent/child relationships grow better after the barriers of teenage-hood fall.
Please, please, please. Do not be afraid to talk to me. Whatever was was. What is now is now. For whatever that statement is worth, I’ve said it.
I will always be your parent. I will always love you. We may have our differences and may not “like” each other at any one point in time, but you will always be loved even if I totally disagree with you.
Do you have to reveal your inner most thoughts to me? No, only what you feel you can or feel you want to. If you choose to change anything, do so. If you feel you want to have it remain the same, leave it the same. I’m through with looking and will not look or listen to whatever anyone has to say about any type of journal. Again, I only ask you to be mindful and careful of others and yourselves and any potential harm that may come from that.
As to the house (current and future), I do expect chores and responsibilities to be completed. Everyone has chores and responsibilities in life. I expect that legitimate things you are asked to do, be done (at home, school, and society) in a timely fashion. I ask that you treat everyone with respect-even if you vehemently disagree with them. I expect you to seek friends, family, or professionals for advice should you need it. But always look at their advice from where they are coming from. Do they have any agendas with their advice and can you live with their agendas?
Whatever decisions you make in your lives always affects everyone who has ever met you. Will you please everyone - never. Simply put, live honorably, associate with honorable people, treat yourself and others honorably. You'll never go wrong with that.
I will be making changes around this house because I need/want to. Should I have changed some things sooner? Most definitely. Will I make changes in the future? Most definitely, as long as I’m alive, everything in life is ever-changing. Will I be making changes in conjunction with other people? Most definitely. As long as I interact with someone, changes are made. Will/are things different now, yes you bet they are. Will it be better than before? I am certainly banking on that. Does that mean all of us have to change somewhat? Yes it does because we are alive and living is dynamic.
Will I be making changes in consultation with Nancy? You bet I will. We are joining our lives in a partnership. There will be changes. Will there be changes in consultation with your mom? You bet there will be. We have rights and responsibilities as your parents that will constantly need adjustment. Hopefully it will all be done respectively and with the outcome the best for all involved.
Will I always be here for you? Physically as long as I’m alive, most definitely yes. Spiritually/mentally? Ss long as there is a memory or if there is a spirit I will be there in some fashion for you. And you will always be here with me spiritually and mentally.
We go forward from here. Will you join me?
With my utmost love,
Dad.
PS I feel a lot calmer now...I found my ring. It had somehow fallen into a box that ended up in the storage unit. I will never figure out how it got there...but it did. As to whether you choose to save, share, or delete this...it is your decision alone. I will not bring it up. I am just sending it. If you wish to talk (with no argument on either side) to me about it, I'll make the time available.
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ok so here are my notes. dad lost the ring and founf=d livejournal so....yea
"Will I always be here for you? Physically as long as I’m alive, most definitely yes. Spiritually/mentally? Ss long as there is a memory or if there is a spirit I will be there in some fashion for you. And you will always be here with me spiritually and mentally. "
you know he wouldn't have said that if i hadn'y screamed that i always see him and that was it. never really talked blah blah...yea....
As your parent, I will always be willing to offer you what I can. To Mary-Kate: I will not abandon what I have promised myself and that is to be here in this house, in this town, for at least through your high school years. After that, it may or may not change, that depends on day to day/year to year opportunities, obligations, jobs, etc. When it does change (and yes I do not intend to remain in Southern California forever), you will always have a place with me if you need it wherever I am. To Bryce: The promise is the same except yours begins after high school instead of before."
yea you see...he doesn't like it here...so he is gunna move after my high school years.....JOY!!! i still lose the house...SO dad...JUST GO AND FUCKING MOVE!!! don't stay for my sake...i mean....NOW you care? *shakes head*
ok now onto a new thing. my mom is going to my dads wedding...shes going for me and bryce. TO me i think its so she can prove that she and dad are still friends. BUT HAS TO RUIN IT!!!! dad isnt going to my moms wedding...i know that they split and it will be uncomfortable, but....*screams and ounchs wall* come on!!! support hjer damnit!!! if you are her friend...show up!!! main reason why...MY MOM IS GAY!!!! if he doesnt wanna show up...i think there is 2 reasons.
1)cant see your ex-wife with a girl
2) you dont except her
now if its tha last one i will slap him hard.
well....here it is....what i have held in for a while.
"Wake Me Up When September Ends"
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends
like my fathers come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are
as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends
summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends
ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when september ends
here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are
as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends
like my father's come to pass
twenty years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends