I Needed Somewhere To Vent, This Was The Only Place To Go
Thomas and I have been broken up for about six days now, and I thought I was handling it all pretty well...but I can't stand to associate the word "Single" to myself.
No matter how hard I try I can't stop thinking about him. I know what he wants is his freedom, and I am prepared to let him enjoy that, as I should have before this whole mess ever started, I just don't enjoy the thought of being without him. All I can do is ache. I can't even hang out with him anymore because it is causing him so much pain. I don't want to cause him anymore pain than I already have. I don't know what to do now.
This whole thing is driving me nuts. I want to be able to see him without causing him pain, which means if he chooses to keep this going for as long as he wants to, I won't be able to see him for three weeks. Which is fine if it was for other circumstances, but this bothers me. I'm probably being ridiculous but that is how I feel.
Amen
No matter how hard I try I can't stop thinking about him. I know what he wants is his freedom, and I am prepared to let him enjoy that, as I should have before this whole mess ever started, I just don't enjoy the thought of being without him. All I can do is ache. I can't even hang out with him anymore because it is causing him so much pain. I don't want to cause him anymore pain than I already have. I don't know what to do now.
This whole thing is driving me nuts. I want to be able to see him without causing him pain, which means if he chooses to keep this going for as long as he wants to, I won't be able to see him for three weeks. Which is fine if it was for other circumstances, but this bothers me. I'm probably being ridiculous but that is how I feel.
Amen