Fragile Minds in the Garden of Good and Evil

Jun 12, 2008 19:34

Paring: Harry/Hermione
Rating: R to be safe
Summery: Fith Fic in the Around the Bend Series. Harry sorts out his feelings for Remus after he confronts Hermione about her feelings for the werewolf.  Mild DH spoilers
I own nothing, JK Rowling owns the story, Aerosmith owns the song. Therefore they get the  money and the glory. The title inspired by "the fragile" by Nine Inch Nails and the book "Midnight in the garden of Good and Evil"

Harry looks over to his lover now asleep. They have been destroying Hecruxs alone, after the unfortunate death of their best friend Ron. They have managed to destroy all but two, the last two that remained at Voldemort’s side.

Every time I look in the mirror
All these lines on my face getting clearer
The past is gone
It goes by, like dusk to dawn
Isn't that the way
Everybody's got their dues in life to pay

He should be proud of their accomplishments and be happy and look forward to a future with the woman he loved. That was what should be, but is not the case.

Yeah, I know nobody knows
where it comes and where it goes
I know it's everybody's sin
You got to lose to know how to win

The woman he loved did not love him the same way or as deeply as he loved her. That was not the part that bothered him, she never lied to him about her feelings. The problem was that she fell deeply in love/lust with his mentor, brother/father figure and friend Remus Lupin.

Half my life
is in books' written pages
Lived and learned from fools and
from sages
You know it's true
All the things come back to you

The two people he loved most in this life wanted each other. He could see them watch each other want each other. Remus has always been kind and respectful of him, he never spoke of his attraction, or made a move on Hermione. But since his hospital stay when he first noticed their attraction to each other, Harry could see the predatory glance of Moony come out more and more. He would see him watch Harry and Hermione together, and at times he could almost swear he was watching them when he made love to her.

Sing with me, sing for the year
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears
Sing with me, if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow, the good lord will take you away

Harry trusted Remus like no other person on earth, but he knew that his dark side of his personality, that everyone has, is darker and more primal than most. It was not an easy concept to grasp, the dichotomy of the kind, compassionate, gentleman that was Remus Lupin and the force that Remus and his school friends called “his furry little problem” or Moony. Remus was the kind that would never try to break up a relationship, force anyone into something that he or she would not want to do. In fact he would be the first to say he was not good enough and force the person away. Moony on the other hand from the little he understood, would not care about the behavior expected among friends, or the decorum of society in general, and take what he wanted without remorse or a second thought.

Yeah, sing with me, sing for the year
sing for the laughter, sing for the tear
sing with me, if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow, the good Lord will take you away

It was a terrible dilemma to be in, he wanted to hate Remus and kill him for the hold he had on Hermione, and his relationship. He on the other hand understood that there are some impulses he has that are difficult to control that could rule him at times of the month and that he hated himself for when the impulses go away.

Dream On Dream On Dream On
Dream until your dreams come true
Dream On Dream On Dream On
Dream until your dream comes through

A conflict in him that was made worse when the three months ago, he heard his Hermione say Remus’s name in her sleep. He had enough and finally confronted her about the whole thing when they were at his parents’ grave at Godric Hollow. She broke down and confessed to everything down to her dreams that were haunting her for months and the guilt for hurting him. He thanked her for finally being honest with him and would not talk to her unless it was necessary on their mission. For the two months he slept outside trying to sort out his feelings.

Dream On Dream On Dream On
Dream On Dream On
Dream On Dream On

The past two months he became more and more confused. He had always liked Remus since he met him all those years ago. He would admit that he had some sort of feelings for Remus as he was growing up, feelings that he would associate with experimentation with life and not true deep feelings. He had to admit the idea of him watching them and wanting to do things to them aroused him.

Sing with me, sing for the year
sing for the laughter, sing for the tear
sing with me, if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow, the good Lord will take you away

He went to her in the tent and said “Hermione we need to talk”

Sing with me, sing for the year
sing for the laughter, sing for the tear
Sing with me, if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow, the good Lord will take you away.....

ficlet/drabble, songfic, around the bend, oneshot, r

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