so it comes to this...
Interesting times I guess.. a lot going on. I think I mentioned before that my HMO really had no clue what was going on with me healthwise, so I went to see a top-notch doctor that I paid out of pocket. He suspected a couple of problems, which were confirmed by a specialist today. In 10 minutes two guys could discover issues that explain all the pain I've been experiencing, which in the eight months I've had it my HMO people couldn't find shit. Amazing. So anyway the specialist/surgeon says I need surgery again to explore and then correct several problems that arose in the appendectomy. Best case, I'm back up in a week after the surgery. Worst case, it could take months of downtime and physical therapy. I've read a few stories about how people couldn't get out of bed without nearly passing out from the pain weeks after what they are going to do to me. It all depends on how much work they have to do to correct the problems. So I guess my mind hasn't been on much else since. I hope to push it back until December though, so I'll have time to close some deals hopefully, and to see some friends coming into town. I've got offers out on two places and have another client I'm showing around.. I've been telling myself not to let pain drive my life lately, and for the most part I've been successful. But some of the stuff I've read on the net about the surgery has got me scared shitless. We won't even talk about how this is going to be paid for and if the jokers at the HMO will being doing this instead of the specialist. That's another mess I have to resolve.
On the plus side, I took some of the cash from my last escrow and bought myself a new toy. A pro Canon camera with a bunch of extras. A lot of reasons behind that, among them being that I no longer can work out, so I needed to fill that void in my life. I figure I can use the thing for work, do landscapes, and maybe take some shots of the models I know. The latter actually gave me the idea, as a friend will be doing a photo workshop next month. Upon seeing that and looking at everything else that was going on, I figured wtf. Since then several friends have actually volunteered to shoot with me, so I better learn quick! I do know that the first time I shot with it was a lot of fun, and definately kept my mind off things. I only hope I'm able to push back the surgery long enough to use it when I intended. Because who knows what my life will be like afterwards. I guess time will tell.
I know getting much done today has been tough, although tomorrow I'm going to have to get back to life as if nothing is wrong. No matter what I figure I have at least a few weeks to get some stuff into escrow, so it's time to get about to doing it.
On the plus side, I took some of the cash from my last escrow and bought myself a new toy. A pro Canon camera with a bunch of extras. A lot of reasons behind that, among them being that I no longer can work out, so I needed to fill that void in my life. I figure I can use the thing for work, do landscapes, and maybe take some shots of the models I know. The latter actually gave me the idea, as a friend will be doing a photo workshop next month. Upon seeing that and looking at everything else that was going on, I figured wtf. Since then several friends have actually volunteered to shoot with me, so I better learn quick! I do know that the first time I shot with it was a lot of fun, and definately kept my mind off things. I only hope I'm able to push back the surgery long enough to use it when I intended. Because who knows what my life will be like afterwards. I guess time will tell.
I know getting much done today has been tough, although tomorrow I'm going to have to get back to life as if nothing is wrong. No matter what I figure I have at least a few weeks to get some stuff into escrow, so it's time to get about to doing it.