Interesting Day
Today had to be one of the most random days i have ever had. Screw all the last minute trips. The day i gor a fake ID, all that. Today was a day that defined myself. In a way I was unaware was possible. Perhaps I am not the person i believed or I am the person i didnt want to see. Today I went to the office to make some xtra cash, cleaning the office for overtime. No big deal 3 hours of work. The first thing that happened that i was unaware of was that i realized that i miss something in my life. It is something that i thought i lost and would never have yet i think i may be able to get it back but that is a thought for another day. The 2 things that happend that perhaps opened my eyes were 2 things that i would never do.
I was taking the trash out today at the office.. A gentleman in the office down stairs dropped his wallet out of his pocket i assume. it was on the ground outside his truck. I picked it up and i am ashamed to say that i considered keeping it. I opened the wallet and there was over 400 dollars in cash in the wallet. Before i go on let me make it clear that i am broke. I have 9 dollars that has to last me till the first of next month and im almost out of gas. I considered keeping the money i even put it in my pocket and went back into the office to finish cleaning up. At first i wasnt going to take it to the guy downstairs. However it weighed heavy on my heart. I have stolen a great many things in my life. Never from another person. I have stolen from companies and such but never from an individual. I think perhaps i have just never been in a position to do so. I returned the wallet to the guy and he shook my hand and walked away. No thank you or fuck off. or anything, hell he didnt even smile. Thats cool im not worried about the gratitude. It just felt good to do the right thing...
Ok now to the second thing. I gave a hitch hiker a ride this morning. His name was Nosa, from Handura or however you spell it. Didnt take him far just about 5 miles closer to were he was headed. Ive never done that before and dont know why i did it today. Perhaps it was the fact that ive had to walk before and know what its like. or the fact that the poor kid was sweating his ass off.. ah hell i dont know just a fucking wierd day. 2 things i never thought i would do and i did them anyways. both made me feel good. And perhaps that is the strange part..
I have spent my life doing things for people that i know and never felt this good about it. Perhaps because i forced myself to do them or perhaps i felt it was my duty to do those things without regard for myself. But none of that ever really made me feel good. Today i did. Kinda liked that feeling
Well just had to write all this down ill try to update more than i use to who knows.
I was taking the trash out today at the office.. A gentleman in the office down stairs dropped his wallet out of his pocket i assume. it was on the ground outside his truck. I picked it up and i am ashamed to say that i considered keeping it. I opened the wallet and there was over 400 dollars in cash in the wallet. Before i go on let me make it clear that i am broke. I have 9 dollars that has to last me till the first of next month and im almost out of gas. I considered keeping the money i even put it in my pocket and went back into the office to finish cleaning up. At first i wasnt going to take it to the guy downstairs. However it weighed heavy on my heart. I have stolen a great many things in my life. Never from another person. I have stolen from companies and such but never from an individual. I think perhaps i have just never been in a position to do so. I returned the wallet to the guy and he shook my hand and walked away. No thank you or fuck off. or anything, hell he didnt even smile. Thats cool im not worried about the gratitude. It just felt good to do the right thing...
Ok now to the second thing. I gave a hitch hiker a ride this morning. His name was Nosa, from Handura or however you spell it. Didnt take him far just about 5 miles closer to were he was headed. Ive never done that before and dont know why i did it today. Perhaps it was the fact that ive had to walk before and know what its like. or the fact that the poor kid was sweating his ass off.. ah hell i dont know just a fucking wierd day. 2 things i never thought i would do and i did them anyways. both made me feel good. And perhaps that is the strange part..
I have spent my life doing things for people that i know and never felt this good about it. Perhaps because i forced myself to do them or perhaps i felt it was my duty to do those things without regard for myself. But none of that ever really made me feel good. Today i did. Kinda liked that feeling
Well just had to write all this down ill try to update more than i use to who knows.