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the past 6 months have been completely numbing...if you think im actually happy, boy have i been fooling you. i feel so dead inside you cant even know. my father is killing me slowly, but killing me all the same with the things he does. having to pack up all your mothers things into a box who died 4 years ago in 8 days...some rememberance. sometimes, actually i do a lot now...i wish i were never born, or my mom would come to me in my sleep and take me. i cant stand the sight of my father, i cant stand being home, i cant stand living anymore.....i just want to disappear