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i hate to be cliche when i say, when did the future go from being a promise to being a threat?
i want to say that i cant let people control me. if i want to move tomorrow i will. no ones going to put their life on hold for me why would i do so for them. because i have in the past. not even thought about taking a chance because i still had ties here. i know that suzanne will go to real college and cassie will fall more completely in love with ben and i will be left. but, i think i'll move too. or find some ridiculous boyfriend and forget everyone else in a second. i mean, is that what life is about? finding love and making your life revolve around it? or.. finding new people? finding a new homes and new experiences? is friendship so easily forgotten? is the only form of relationship that is suppose to last is love? if so, i'm way behind. haha. i'm not being bitter, this isnt some angry post. this is just.. i dont know.
i just realize more and more everyday how petty some people are. and how those people who so easily stopped being my friend dont fucking matter anymore. the people who probably used me, and the people that were just stupid and immature. i have no feelings towards them any longer.
anyway, i want to get 'shake your hips, raise your fists" tattooed on my body.
done.
i want to say that i cant let people control me. if i want to move tomorrow i will. no ones going to put their life on hold for me why would i do so for them. because i have in the past. not even thought about taking a chance because i still had ties here. i know that suzanne will go to real college and cassie will fall more completely in love with ben and i will be left. but, i think i'll move too. or find some ridiculous boyfriend and forget everyone else in a second. i mean, is that what life is about? finding love and making your life revolve around it? or.. finding new people? finding a new homes and new experiences? is friendship so easily forgotten? is the only form of relationship that is suppose to last is love? if so, i'm way behind. haha. i'm not being bitter, this isnt some angry post. this is just.. i dont know.
i just realize more and more everyday how petty some people are. and how those people who so easily stopped being my friend dont fucking matter anymore. the people who probably used me, and the people that were just stupid and immature. i have no feelings towards them any longer.
anyway, i want to get 'shake your hips, raise your fists" tattooed on my body.
done.