i never see u
everyday i look for u and i never see u. i dunno how u see me but it might be when im taking my dad to work or when im going to school or when im going to work i dunno but those are the only times im out driving. i dunno what to do with my life anymore i had a gain plan to get me threw everything and im doing it but i dunno if i really want it it anymore i dunno if i want to go cali or if i want to stay and the more i think about it i just dont know. i know it would be great to move there and go after something ive always wanted but then again i would have no friends out there and no family. i just dont know anymore. i dont know me anymore and no one in this world knows the type of hurt i have inside my heart and my head and the rest of my body. my neck is completely fucked up it hurts to trun my head and to walk my hands are always cut up. its like someone took a knife and just started pressing it on my hands from doing 40 hrs a week at sonnys but its all good. i get ppaid about 550 every two weeks and at my other job i get $75 every saturday for only one days work. i got the money i got my civic back but im still missing my love. i did what u wanted in the beggening i got help i got my life stright and u still dont want to talk to me so i guess i did alot for nothing. oh well i minice well just give up on faith and love its all bs and i dont want any of it anymore. i just want to fucking disapear out of this world and into another one with none of this shit. im out, i got to go to school.