Oct 23, 2010 12:37
Several years ago, when Travis and I broke up, I used this as my (rather public) forum for venting and once I started getting over it, I didn't use this as often and instead wrote about travels or silly things.
When I was 22, I felt like everything I wrote had some deep meaning and that magically, he would read it and things would get better and we'd work through our shit and grow up and get married and have babies and actually clean our house.
I was super excited to fall in love again with Casey because until then, I had myself convinced that I would never really fall in love again, but I did, and for that reason, I'm glad that we were together- it made me realize that I can always fall in love again.
Maybe you figured this out, but we broke up. I think up until the end, I thought we would work out our problems, but I think we're really different. Even though we got along a lot better than Travis and I did, Casey and I were hugely different and totally incompatible in a house, partly because we wanted such different things. I want to do things like get married and have babies and it sounds like maybe he wants to wait a long time.
This is OK. I will need to keep looking for the right one. And that's fine.