update.
I haven't been here in a while, so I thought I should do an update. I dunno what to write 'cause nothing's really new, but I'll try anyways.
So lately, I haven't been feeling my best. My parents and I haven't talked properly for 2 weeks. Thinking back, I know what happened was mostly my fault, but that doesn't justify how my dad reacted. I'm trapped and it sucks. I've thought about moving out, so I looked for places. I couldn't find any that I can afford though. I talked to my co-workers about this, and my somewhat mother figure at work talked to me and explained to me in a parent's point of view about moving out. She told me to really think about it and to start saving. So I've come to a decision that I will stay here until I'm atleast 20. I'll just suck it up til then.
My "boy problems" haven't really gotten any better. I'm still talking about the same ones. I know it's getting kinda annoying. And not to sound gay or anything, but it's true that you can't tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does. I'm still in this never ending circle with Boy #1. I don't even know what to say about this one. I think I've said all I can say about him, and our situation. It hasn't changed one bit. I've actually grown accustomed to it. I'm not saying that's a good thing, but atleast I'm not getting hurt as much anymore. *Thumbs Up* Haha!
I try to avoid conversations about Boy #2 because I'm really, really trying. It's hard though, sometimes it just slips. But TRUST ME, I am getting better. :) I know in time i'll be able to look him in the eyes and talk to him. Time heals all wounds, and this isn't an exception.
Lately, i've been so bitchy to a few people, and I still don't know why!! I hope I can fix this ASAP. Also, work sucks balls. But I'm too lazy to look for another job, and I really need the money right now, so I gotta suck it up. Well that's all I have to say. haha!
WAIT I FORGOT SOMETHING
I HAVEN'T SMOKED FOR 5 WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D
So lately, I haven't been feeling my best. My parents and I haven't talked properly for 2 weeks. Thinking back, I know what happened was mostly my fault, but that doesn't justify how my dad reacted. I'm trapped and it sucks. I've thought about moving out, so I looked for places. I couldn't find any that I can afford though. I talked to my co-workers about this, and my somewhat mother figure at work talked to me and explained to me in a parent's point of view about moving out. She told me to really think about it and to start saving. So I've come to a decision that I will stay here until I'm atleast 20. I'll just suck it up til then.
My "boy problems" haven't really gotten any better. I'm still talking about the same ones. I know it's getting kinda annoying. And not to sound gay or anything, but it's true that you can't tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does. I'm still in this never ending circle with Boy #1. I don't even know what to say about this one. I think I've said all I can say about him, and our situation. It hasn't changed one bit. I've actually grown accustomed to it. I'm not saying that's a good thing, but atleast I'm not getting hurt as much anymore. *Thumbs Up* Haha!
I try to avoid conversations about Boy #2 because I'm really, really trying. It's hard though, sometimes it just slips. But TRUST ME, I am getting better. :) I know in time i'll be able to look him in the eyes and talk to him. Time heals all wounds, and this isn't an exception.
Lately, i've been so bitchy to a few people, and I still don't know why!! I hope I can fix this ASAP. Also, work sucks balls. But I'm too lazy to look for another job, and I really need the money right now, so I gotta suck it up. Well that's all I have to say. haha!
WAIT I FORGOT SOMETHING
I HAVEN'T SMOKED FOR 5 WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D