hmmm
Yesterday Mar and myself went to pick up Josh from work. Yes, I was indeed a third wheel. Anyways, coming down the escalator of the food court, I saw a familiar face.. Allan. He waved at Mar, and there was this guy beside him. I looked for a second and looked away. For some reason, I took a look at him again and realized it was Ryan. Damn.. he looked better than I remembered.. honestly. After a short while, I realized he was waiting for his girlfriend to get off work. She just happens to work at the same place Josh does so we had to wait at the same place. I couldnt take seeing him and not talking to him. After like 5 minutes, I asked Mar if it was okay if we waited for Josh somewhere else.. and we did. Finally Josh got off work and we left. Mar dropped me off at Kayan's and my brothers picked me up from there.
..really though. He looked good. That's pretty much all I have to say considering we didn't even talk. Or showed any sign that we knew each other. It kinda sucks that this is how we are.. AGAIN. I wanted so bad to say Hi just to pretend I don't care, but I didn't have the courage. All I gotta say is she's lucky she gets to beat that. HAHAHAHAHA. =p
I’m trying so hard not to care
But you’re happy now and it’s not fair
Just when I thought that I was getting strong
I see you with her I was wrong
Now I can pretend that losing you didn’t mean a thing
And I can deny that this whole thing’s not happening
To hold it inside…it’s killing me, it’s hurting me.
on a happier note
It's almost Christmas! =) and Boxing day! This year, I'm actually goin Boxing Day shopping! woohoo! Anyways, gonna get ready for work.