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Rewind one year - where were you? What were your plans? What was your mindset?
I was convinced I'd be leaving here. I was convinced I would be neck deep in foreign poverty, sweating my ass off in volunteer work and surviving on my own while finding out who I am and what I'm made of.
History rewards the proactive.
Fast forward one year - where will I be? Am I going to be in the same place?
I can't help but feel like I'm being sucked into the suburban abyss along with all my aspirations. The only way to get out is to establish that first step, because you can sit and dream all day long about what you want to do. Nothing is going to happen unless YOU personally make it happen - and we hear these things everyday, but none of us learns it until we experience it for ourselves.
I've made steps to return to school.
I thought I'd want to go back to FSU, but that's just asking for trouble. Fuck Florida, I need a change. The people here are mostly clones of a terrible nature - and for the longest time I was convinced that this was how everyone was, but I've been told time and time again that these were just Floridians.
My options?
UNO
Due to a recent acquaintance I've established, Nebraska is now an option. UNO in Omaha supposedly has a great philosophy department, and the city itself sounds great. I plan on visiting at the end of July.
UT
My sister has equally compelling statements about how great Austin, Texas is. From the pictures she has shown me, it seems like a really large and busy place. She said it was my kind of city because there are people sitting around playing guitar and smoking weed, that kinda made me laugh. I'll need to visit there and make a decision.
I know this isn't what I planned for and that I'll be back to square one again, but it's better than being at zero. I don't believe that life happens in extreme places exclusively - I believe that it can happen anywhere if you look for it.
So for now, I'll just press play and make the steps necessary to get me where I want to go.
I was convinced I'd be leaving here. I was convinced I would be neck deep in foreign poverty, sweating my ass off in volunteer work and surviving on my own while finding out who I am and what I'm made of.
History rewards the proactive.
Fast forward one year - where will I be? Am I going to be in the same place?
I can't help but feel like I'm being sucked into the suburban abyss along with all my aspirations. The only way to get out is to establish that first step, because you can sit and dream all day long about what you want to do. Nothing is going to happen unless YOU personally make it happen - and we hear these things everyday, but none of us learns it until we experience it for ourselves.
I've made steps to return to school.
I thought I'd want to go back to FSU, but that's just asking for trouble. Fuck Florida, I need a change. The people here are mostly clones of a terrible nature - and for the longest time I was convinced that this was how everyone was, but I've been told time and time again that these were just Floridians.
My options?
UNO
Due to a recent acquaintance I've established, Nebraska is now an option. UNO in Omaha supposedly has a great philosophy department, and the city itself sounds great. I plan on visiting at the end of July.
UT
My sister has equally compelling statements about how great Austin, Texas is. From the pictures she has shown me, it seems like a really large and busy place. She said it was my kind of city because there are people sitting around playing guitar and smoking weed, that kinda made me laugh. I'll need to visit there and make a decision.
I know this isn't what I planned for and that I'll be back to square one again, but it's better than being at zero. I don't believe that life happens in extreme places exclusively - I believe that it can happen anywhere if you look for it.
So for now, I'll just press play and make the steps necessary to get me where I want to go.