An Apology
I am dedicating this journal to someone I am sure that I upset and hurt last night. I am sorry if I wrote things to you that were harsh, unthoughtful, and painful. Truth is I should never have written those things, and in a sense, I didn't even necessarily mean them they way they were said. I have a lot of pain, and frustration, and confusion, and bitterness inside right now...and yes a majority of it is directed at you. Believe me when I say that I am trying as hard as humanly possible to make these feelings dissappear. The problem with trying to make them dissappear is that I am more or less just covering them up instead of dealing with them. Yes I am scared to deal with them, because if I do, I don't know if I could be friends with you...and that is terrifying to me. I just want to say I had no right to say those things, and it was the most inconsiderate thing I believe I have ever done...and I'm sorry. Talk to me if you wish, or don't. It's up to you....