Carlos jolts, shoulders hunching up as he hears Kendall stomping towards the living room. He quickly thinks back through the day, wondering what he did this time to piss Kendall off.
Kendall stalks over to stand in front of Carlos on the couch, blocking the TV, jaw set and eyes hard. He has Carlos’ helmet clutched in one hand and-
Oh, that’s where he left it, Carlos thinks, looking up at the other boy. “What’s the matter?”
“How many times do I have to tell you not to leave your helmet laying around where anyone can trip over it?”
Carlos flinches slightly under Kendall’s angry gaze. “I’m sorry, Kendall. Did you hurt yourself?” Carlos looks up at Kendall worriedly, eyes flicking up and down trying to see if the other boy had any injuries.
Kendall looks down at him, jaw clenched for a few moments before he seems to deflate. “No. Just…keep your stuff out of my room,” he says, tossing Carlos’ helmet onto the couch.
Carlos immediately grabs it and hugs it to his chest, gently rubbing his thumb across the black plastic. “Okay,” he says, looking down then looks back up at Kendall. “I’m sorry.”
Kendall doesn’t say anything, just lets out an annoyed sigh and walks away. Carlos watches him disappear back towards his room before sinking back against the couch.
He hates when Kendall gets angry at him, which has been happening a lot more often lately. He doesn’t know what he’s doing wrong though. Every single little thing Carlos does seems to set Kendall off.
The other morning, Kendall yelled at Carlos for using the last bowl for cereal when Kendall always ate pop-tarts for breakfast. And then Kendall got angry when Carlos left the cap off the toothpaste the morning after. It wasn’t Carlos’ fault though! The cap had fallen and rolled away from him and he hadn’t been able to find it. He didn’t think it’d be that big of a deal.
Carlos shoves his helmet on his head and hunches in on himself, chin quivering slightly as he thinks back to every time Kendall has gotten annoyed or angry at him over nothing.
Carlos trudges into Logan and Kendall’s shared room later that day where Logan is sitting at his desk, reading. Logan barely looks up when Carlos lets out a huge sigh and falls face first onto Logan’s bed. Carlos turns his head to look at the other boy and lets out another sigh when Logan doesn’t acknowledge him.
He sees Logan glance up briefly and Carlos lets out one more long, miserable sounding sigh which has Logan rolling his eyes and swiveling around in his chair towards Carlos. “What’s the matter, Carlos?”
“Nothing,” Carlos sighs out.
Logan rolls his eyes again. “Well, obviously something is wrong. Tell me.”
Carlos bites his bottom lip, suddenly not sure if he should even voice his worries. Saying it out loud might make it real and he doesn’t want that. But he doesn’t know what to do and Logan always seems to have an answer.
He inhales slowly and lets it out in a rush. “I don’t think Kendall likes me anymore,” he says, voice coming out thick with emotion. His eyes feel heavy and ache-y and he really hopes he doesn’t cry because that would just be lame.
Logan’s eyes widen and he leans back in surprise. “What? Dude, what are you talking about? Kendall’s crazy about you.”
Carlos shook his head as best as he could with it buried in Logan’s pillow. “No, he’s not. He’s been…getting mad at me for everything and trying to fight with me and I don’t know what I did wrong and what if he wants to break up me. I don’t think I could handle that, Logan,” he says quickly, trying to blink back the sudden onslaught of tears.
Logan looks at Carlos in surprise, holding his hands out in front of him. “Whoa, dude, slow down. Have you talked to him about it?”
Carlos shook his head again. “No…I’m afraid…”
“Of what?”
“I don’t want him to break up with me…”
“He won’t. And if he does then James and I will kick his ass,” Logan says, offering a small smile.
That surprises a laugh out of Carlos. “You wouldn’t.”
“We so would if he was stupid enough to break up with you.”
Carlos smiles slightly. “Thanks.”
“Just talk to him. I’m sure there’s a perfectly good explanation for his behavior,” Logan says, turning his chair around back towards his desk.
Carlos mulls it over for the remainder of the day and decides to just get it over with. He enters Kendall and Logan’s room once more and finds Kendall getting ready for bed. He pauses and flushes slightly at the quick flash of skin he manages to catch before Kendall pulls his shirt down.
The blond turns to him and smiles when he notices him. “Hey, Carlos, what’s up?”
“Kendall, can we talk?”
Kendall eyes widen and his smile falls slightly as he nods, sitting down on his bed. “Yeah, sure. What’s up?”
Carlos could feel Kendall’s eyes on him as he took a seat on Logan’s bed. He didn’t know where to start. He wet his lips quickly and looked down at his lap, not saying anything for a long while. He finally took a deep breath and looked up at Kendall, hesitation in his eyes.
“Do you hate me?”
Kendall’s eyes widen in surprise. “What? Why would you think that?”
Carlos looked down again, fingers digging into his thighs. “Well, you’ve been getting mad at me a lot over everything. And I don’t know what I did wrong but if you- if you don’t want to be together anymore, I’ll understand…”
Something heavy settlesin Kendall’s chest and he quickly moves to sit next to Carlos. He grabs Carlos by the shoulders and turns him to face him. “Carlos, look at me,” he says softly, waiting until Carlos turns his face up towards him.
Kendall takes a deep breath, “Look, I’m sorry. I know I’ve been kind of…pissy lately. And I know I shouldn’t have been taking it out on you, but I don’t hate you, okay? I could never hate you. I love you.”
Carlos’s eyes widen in surprise then he smiles so brightly that Kendall feels like an even bigger jackass for making it go away at all. “Really?”
Kendall smiled and reaches up to gently stroke Carlos’ cheek with his thumb. “Yes, really.”
Carlos’ brows furrow and his smile disappears, replaced with a deep frown. “Then why are you always trying to fight with me?”
Kendall opened and closed his mouth several times, words failing him. He didn’t know how to answer that because he wasn’t even sure himself why he did it. “I don’t know, Carlos. I just. Things are just so easy with you…” He stops and swallows softly. “I guess I’m just not used to it.”
Carlos’ head tilts to the side and he only looks more confused. “What do you mean?”
Kendall takes a moment to gather his thoughts, taking a deep breath. “Well, with me and Jo, there was always something getting in the way. Either some kind of misunderstanding or we had a schedule conflict or just something, ya know?”
Carlos nods, “Yeah, I remember…”
“And with you…everything is so simple. Which I love. I really do,” he adds quickly, reaching over to place his hand over Carlos. He shakes his head slightly and looks down, letting out a sigh. “But…It’s just- I feel like something is going to go wrong with how smooth things are with us. I know that doesn’t really make sense and it’s not a really good excuse for how I’ve been acting. And I’m really sorry I made you feel like you did something wrong. You didn’t. I’m just an idiot,” he finishes in a rush.
He watched Carlos, heart pounding in his chest as he waits for Carlos’ response. He wouldn’t blame the other boy for being upset with him and not accepting his apology easily.
Carlos is silent for a moment, mouth down-turned in a frown. “You know, I could get mad at you over little things, too, if you want,” Carlos eventually says, one eyebrow raising inquisitively.
Kendall blinks in surprise then smiles before letting out a small chuckle. “Yeah? Like what?”
“Well, like, sometimes you drool on me when we sleep together and you also kick me sometimes,” Carlos says slowly, almost like he’s forcing himself to find faults with Kendall.
Kendall’s eyes widen and his mouth falls open slightly. “I do not!” He shoves at Carlos’ shoulder lightly and Carlos lets out a small huff of laughter.
“You do! I just never said anything because it’s not like you can help it,” he says, shoving back.
Kendall laughs again, shoving Carlos again with more force than before until Carlos is lying flat on his back. Kendall doesn’t waste any time in straddling Carlos, placing both hands on the other boy’s shoulders to pin him down.
Carlos looks up at him, eyes wide in surprise and Kendall can’t resist leaning down to kiss him. Carlos’ lips part eagerly under his and Kendall smirks slightly against Carlos’ mouth before he sits up.
“I’m sorry,” he says again because he really is. And now that he’s kind of figured out what his problem is, he’ll be able to keep his aggravation in check.
“You already said that.”
“Well, do you forgive me?”
Carlos tilts his head up to look at Kendall, face scrunched up in thought. “I guess,” he says, then pokes Kendall’s stomach. “Only if you promise to quit yelling at me.”
Kendall chuckles and nods before he leans down once more until his mouth was hovering over Carlos’. “Promise,” he whispers softly and presses their lips together once more.
Carlos’ hands find his hips and Kendall can’t stop the moan that escapes him when Carlos’ fingers dig into them. He nips at Carlos’ bottom lip lightly, hands sliding up to cup Carlos’ face as he licks his way into Carlos’ mouth, moaning softly when Carlos’ tongue slides against his.
Carlos’ fingers flex against his hips and Kendall can feel the gently pressure of Carlos trying to thrust up against him. Kendall chuckles lightly and he’s just thinking of the perfect way to make up for his crappy behavior when the door opens and there’s a shrill screech that has Kendall and Carlos separating in surprise.
They both turn their heads to see Logan standing in the doorway in horror. Logan sputters and his arms flap around helplessly. “What are-! Why are-! Kendall! Your bed’s less than five feet away!” He gestures wildly to the other bed in the room then back on the one Kendall and Carlos are occupying. “Why are you on mine?”
Kendall looks around and realizes that oh, yeah, they are on Logan’s bed. Oops. “Sorry, man. We didn’t even notice,” he says as he slides off the bed.
Carlos follows him, looking amused and embarrassed at the same time. “Sorry, Logan,” Carlos says, biting his bottom lip to keep from smiling.
Logan shoots them both a withering glare and starts stripping off his sheets. Kendall laughs, “Aw, come on, Logan. We didn’t do anything. We were just kissing!”
“I don’t care,” Logan snaps out irritably. “That’s bad enough!”
Kendall barks out a laugh and rolls his eyes. “Alright, whatever,” he says, nudging Carlos gently before reaching down to grab Carlos’ hand. Warmth swells in his chest when Carlos’ hand curls around his own tightly.
“Come on, Carlitos, we’ll continue this in your room,” he says, smirking down at the other boy as he tugs gently on Carlos’ hand, leading him out of the room and leaving a grumbling Logan behind.
Carlos was sad and it made me sad but now he's happy again so it's okay ♥♥♥
I LOVE CARLOS & LOGAN INTERACTIONS. Carlos sighing dramatically and then trying to say nothing's wrong, silly boy ♥
Poor Kendall trying to ruin a good thing because he doesn't know any better :( Just. I kind of want to flail about all of that and go into some rambly thing about Kendall/Jo vs. Kendall/Carlos. Carlos doesn't have the temperament to handle an antagonistic relationship, and just. I don't know. STOP BEING STUPID KENDALL.
But but but CARLOS SAYING HE COULD GET MAD AT KENDALL TOO. BECAUSE HE'S CARLOS AND HE WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR KENDALL.
Logan's reaction to them kissing on his bed killed me. You have no idea. Screeching. Changing the sheets. Just. Yes. ♥
THANK YOU SO MUCH YOU ARE WONDERFUL AND HERE HAVE ALL OF THE HEARTS ♥♥♥♥♥
Carlos jolts, shoulders hunching up as he hears Kendall stomping towards the living room. He quickly thinks back through the day, wondering what he did this time to piss Kendall off.
Kendall stalks over to stand in front of Carlos on the couch, blocking the TV, jaw set and eyes hard. He has Carlos’ helmet clutched in one hand and-
Oh, that’s where he left it, Carlos thinks, looking up at the other boy. “What’s the matter?”
“How many times do I have to tell you not to leave your helmet laying around where anyone can trip over it?”
Carlos flinches slightly under Kendall’s angry gaze. “I’m sorry, Kendall. Did you hurt yourself?” Carlos looks up at Kendall worriedly, eyes flicking up and down trying to see if the other boy had any injuries.
Kendall looks down at him, jaw clenched for a few moments before he seems to deflate. “No. Just…keep your stuff out of my room,” he says, tossing Carlos’ helmet onto the couch.
Carlos immediately grabs it and hugs it to his chest, gently rubbing his thumb across the black plastic. “Okay,” he says, looking down then looks back up at Kendall. “I’m sorry.”
Kendall doesn’t say anything, just lets out an annoyed sigh and walks away. Carlos watches him disappear back towards his room before sinking back against the couch.
He hates when Kendall gets angry at him, which has been happening a lot more often lately. He doesn’t know what he’s doing wrong though. Every single little thing Carlos does seems to set Kendall off.
The other morning, Kendall yelled at Carlos for using the last bowl for cereal when Kendall always ate pop-tarts for breakfast. And then Kendall got angry when Carlos left the cap off the toothpaste the morning after. It wasn’t Carlos’ fault though! The cap had fallen and rolled away from him and he hadn’t been able to find it. He didn’t think it’d be that big of a deal.
Carlos shoves his helmet on his head and hunches in on himself, chin quivering slightly as he thinks back to every time Kendall has gotten annoyed or angry at him over nothing.
He wishes he knew what he had done to deserve it.
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He sees Logan glance up briefly and Carlos lets out one more long, miserable sounding sigh which has Logan rolling his eyes and swiveling around in his chair towards Carlos. “What’s the matter, Carlos?”
“Nothing,” Carlos sighs out.
Logan rolls his eyes again. “Well, obviously something is wrong. Tell me.”
Carlos bites his bottom lip, suddenly not sure if he should even voice his worries. Saying it out loud might make it real and he doesn’t want that. But he doesn’t know what to do and Logan always seems to have an answer.
He inhales slowly and lets it out in a rush. “I don’t think Kendall likes me anymore,” he says, voice coming out thick with emotion. His eyes feel heavy and ache-y and he really hopes he doesn’t cry because that would just be lame.
Logan’s eyes widen and he leans back in surprise. “What? Dude, what are you talking about? Kendall’s crazy about you.”
Carlos shook his head as best as he could with it buried in Logan’s pillow. “No, he’s not. He’s been…getting mad at me for everything and trying to fight with me and I don’t know what I did wrong and what if he wants to break up me. I don’t think I could handle that, Logan,” he says quickly, trying to blink back the sudden onslaught of tears.
Logan looks at Carlos in surprise, holding his hands out in front of him. “Whoa, dude, slow down. Have you talked to him about it?”
Carlos shook his head again. “No…I’m afraid…”
“Of what?”
“I don’t want him to break up with me…”
“He won’t. And if he does then James and I will kick his ass,” Logan says, offering a small smile.
That surprises a laugh out of Carlos. “You wouldn’t.”
“We so would if he was stupid enough to break up with you.”
Carlos smiles slightly. “Thanks.”
“Just talk to him. I’m sure there’s a perfectly good explanation for his behavior,” Logan says, turning his chair around back towards his desk.
Carlos lets out a tiny sigh and nods. “Okay.”
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The blond turns to him and smiles when he notices him. “Hey, Carlos, what’s up?”
“Kendall, can we talk?”
Kendall eyes widen and his smile falls slightly as he nods, sitting down on his bed. “Yeah, sure. What’s up?”
Carlos could feel Kendall’s eyes on him as he took a seat on Logan’s bed. He didn’t know where to start. He wet his lips quickly and looked down at his lap, not saying anything for a long while. He finally took a deep breath and looked up at Kendall, hesitation in his eyes.
“Do you hate me?”
Kendall’s eyes widen in surprise. “What? Why would you think that?”
Carlos looked down again, fingers digging into his thighs. “Well, you’ve been getting mad at me a lot over everything. And I don’t know what I did wrong but if you- if you don’t want to be together anymore, I’ll understand…”
Something heavy settlesin Kendall’s chest and he quickly moves to sit next to Carlos. He grabs Carlos by the shoulders and turns him to face him. “Carlos, look at me,” he says softly, waiting until Carlos turns his face up towards him.
Kendall takes a deep breath, “Look, I’m sorry. I know I’ve been kind of…pissy lately. And I know I shouldn’t have been taking it out on you, but I don’t hate you, okay? I could never hate you. I love you.”
Carlos’s eyes widen in surprise then he smiles so brightly that Kendall feels like an even bigger jackass for making it go away at all. “Really?”
Kendall smiled and reaches up to gently stroke Carlos’ cheek with his thumb. “Yes, really.”
Carlos’ brows furrow and his smile disappears, replaced with a deep frown. “Then why are you always trying to fight with me?”
Kendall opened and closed his mouth several times, words failing him. He didn’t know how to answer that because he wasn’t even sure himself why he did it. “I don’t know, Carlos. I just. Things are just so easy with you…” He stops and swallows softly. “I guess I’m just not used to it.”
Carlos’ head tilts to the side and he only looks more confused. “What do you mean?”
Kendall takes a moment to gather his thoughts, taking a deep breath. “Well, with me and Jo, there was always something getting in the way. Either some kind of misunderstanding or we had a schedule conflict or just something, ya know?”
Carlos nods, “Yeah, I remember…”
“And with you…everything is so simple. Which I love. I really do,” he adds quickly, reaching over to place his hand over Carlos. He shakes his head slightly and looks down, letting out a sigh. “But…It’s just- I feel like something is going to go wrong with how smooth things are with us. I know that doesn’t really make sense and it’s not a really good excuse for how I’ve been acting. And I’m really sorry I made you feel like you did something wrong. You didn’t. I’m just an idiot,” he finishes in a rush.
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Carlos is silent for a moment, mouth down-turned in a frown. “You know, I could get mad at you over little things, too, if you want,” Carlos eventually says, one eyebrow raising inquisitively.
Kendall blinks in surprise then smiles before letting out a small chuckle. “Yeah? Like what?”
“Well, like, sometimes you drool on me when we sleep together and you also kick me sometimes,” Carlos says slowly, almost like he’s forcing himself to find faults with Kendall.
Kendall’s eyes widen and his mouth falls open slightly. “I do not!” He shoves at Carlos’ shoulder lightly and Carlos lets out a small huff of laughter.
“You do! I just never said anything because it’s not like you can help it,” he says, shoving back.
Kendall laughs again, shoving Carlos again with more force than before until Carlos is lying flat on his back. Kendall doesn’t waste any time in straddling Carlos, placing both hands on the other boy’s shoulders to pin him down.
Carlos looks up at him, eyes wide in surprise and Kendall can’t resist leaning down to kiss him. Carlos’ lips part eagerly under his and Kendall smirks slightly against Carlos’ mouth before he sits up.
“I’m sorry,” he says again because he really is. And now that he’s kind of figured out what his problem is, he’ll be able to keep his aggravation in check.
“You already said that.”
“Well, do you forgive me?”
Carlos tilts his head up to look at Kendall, face scrunched up in thought. “I guess,” he says, then pokes Kendall’s stomach. “Only if you promise to quit yelling at me.”
Kendall chuckles and nods before he leans down once more until his mouth was hovering over Carlos’. “Promise,” he whispers softly and presses their lips together once more.
Carlos’ hands find his hips and Kendall can’t stop the moan that escapes him when Carlos’ fingers dig into them. He nips at Carlos’ bottom lip lightly, hands sliding up to cup Carlos’ face as he licks his way into Carlos’ mouth, moaning softly when Carlos’ tongue slides against his.
Carlos’ fingers flex against his hips and Kendall can feel the gently pressure of Carlos trying to thrust up against him. Kendall chuckles lightly and he’s just thinking of the perfect way to make up for his crappy behavior when the door opens and there’s a shrill screech that has Kendall and Carlos separating in surprise.
They both turn their heads to see Logan standing in the doorway in horror. Logan sputters and his arms flap around helplessly. “What are-! Why are-! Kendall! Your bed’s less than five feet away!” He gestures wildly to the other bed in the room then back on the one Kendall and Carlos are occupying. “Why are you on mine?”
Kendall looks around and realizes that oh, yeah, they are on Logan’s bed. Oops. “Sorry, man. We didn’t even notice,” he says as he slides off the bed.
Carlos follows him, looking amused and embarrassed at the same time. “Sorry, Logan,” Carlos says, biting his bottom lip to keep from smiling.
Logan shoots them both a withering glare and starts stripping off his sheets. Kendall laughs, “Aw, come on, Logan. We didn’t do anything. We were just kissing!”
“I don’t care,” Logan snaps out irritably. “That’s bad enough!”
Kendall barks out a laugh and rolls his eyes. “Alright, whatever,” he says, nudging Carlos gently before reaching down to grab Carlos’ hand. Warmth swells in his chest when Carlos’ hand curls around his own tightly.
“Come on, Carlitos, we’ll continue this in your room,” he says, smirking down at the other boy as he tugs gently on Carlos’ hand, leading him out of the room and leaving a grumbling Logan behind.
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Carlos was sad and it made me sad but now he's happy again so it's okay ♥♥♥
I LOVE CARLOS & LOGAN INTERACTIONS. Carlos sighing dramatically and then trying to say nothing's wrong, silly boy ♥
Poor Kendall trying to ruin a good thing because he doesn't know any better :( Just. I kind of want to flail about all of that and go into some rambly thing about Kendall/Jo vs. Kendall/Carlos. Carlos doesn't have the temperament to handle an antagonistic relationship, and just. I don't know. STOP BEING STUPID KENDALL.
But but but CARLOS SAYING HE COULD GET MAD AT KENDALL TOO. BECAUSE HE'S CARLOS AND HE WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR KENDALL.
Logan's reaction to them kissing on his bed killed me. You have no idea. Screeching. Changing the sheets. Just. Yes. ♥
THANK YOU SO MUCH YOU ARE WONDERFUL AND HERE HAVE ALL OF THE HEARTS ♥♥♥♥♥
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