next fall by fifth year love affair
So I posted this song below awhile ago for myself. You know that whole private thing. But I've listened to this song...oh I'd say a shit load. It's kind of a slow emo song but in all, it pretty much sums up the way things are right now. Shit when I read the lyrics it almost look like something I wrote.
So I think a few of you know I'm dating again. Just some random people I've been meeting. Nothing too be all crazy about. I know it's way too early for me to date. But I promised myself that I wouldn't just mope around and do nothing...that's all I did after Ginger and I broke it off. Feeling kinda of the same thing right now. I not happy about what happened between Sarah and me. I don't give two shits about the girls I've met, and most of the girls I've met in my daily life on campus, they all seem rather fake-friendly. Am I attempting to have fun? yea, but it seems that there is something wrong. I think I gave the girl I saw last night the wrong impression. She's already called me twice this morning. I'm not looking for that. But I'm glad to see I still know how to horse around. It's an ego boost. Maybe I was still on that vibe from this last weekend, and the test.
I've had sometime to think about somethings. I still think I need more. But to let you know Sarah you're not far from my thoughts, I've wanted to call but I really think I shouldn't right now. Just know I'd like to be able to have a friendship with you. But I have to make sure I'm doing it for the right reasons. I don't want to be 'that' guy, you know the one that is always looking like he wants to be that girls boyfriend in the movies but never can...kinda creepy fellow. Right now I'm still feeling like I'd be that guy, and that's not what you want, and it's not fair to me, and it's not right. So I need to just ...uh, I don't really know. But I know I need to think some more about things.
I'm tired of people feeling sorry for me. I've heard too many "poor nic" in the last couple of weeks...Thanks to those that have, but it's kind of a downer for me. I try and brush it off. But I know I still have many more obsticles to face. It's hard to keep your head up when so many people think I should be the one with my head on their shoulder crying. I appreciate it, But I don't think I'm at that stage yet. well I take that back. I am, Just attempting to do it differently.
I'm very Niave and gulible when it comes to relationships. I think someone said something like Love goggles. Not sure what that meant but it's an intresting comment to make. only seeing what you want to see. I'm not sure that was the implied intent. I want to believe that every girl I've met has been faithful, honest and caring towards me. (not intended to imply anything just saying it) ....don't know what I was getting at....damn it.
I'd like to think that a friendship with sarah is going to be good. But I still haven't made up my mind. But I want to let you know I don't hate you, Sarah. Dissapointed yes, but hatred... not even for a minute, this is what you feel.
I'd like to talk with you soon, and catch up. Actually I'd like to talk with you now. But I'm going to wait for awhile. It's still hard for me to believe this all happened.
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Next Fall
she says "good-bye" as she's leaving/ "i'll be back again next fall"/ but her eyes tell a different story/ if he'd look at them at all/ he says "even the best of eyes go blind/ and even i can be wrong sometimes"/ but he needed to believe/ it was meant to be/ he waves good-bye as she's leaving/ she'll be back again next fall/ he's pretty sure that he won't see her/ he's been there before that's all/ he thought about her every morning/ and the summer gave way to fall/ as he writes his final letter/ at that moment she calls/ she says "even the best of eyes go blind/ even i can be wrong sometimes/ so it took so long to see/it was meant to be"/ even the best of eyes go blind/ thank god I was wrong this time/ now it's clear to me/ it was meant to be
So I think a few of you know I'm dating again. Just some random people I've been meeting. Nothing too be all crazy about. I know it's way too early for me to date. But I promised myself that I wouldn't just mope around and do nothing...that's all I did after Ginger and I broke it off. Feeling kinda of the same thing right now. I not happy about what happened between Sarah and me. I don't give two shits about the girls I've met, and most of the girls I've met in my daily life on campus, they all seem rather fake-friendly. Am I attempting to have fun? yea, but it seems that there is something wrong. I think I gave the girl I saw last night the wrong impression. She's already called me twice this morning. I'm not looking for that. But I'm glad to see I still know how to horse around. It's an ego boost. Maybe I was still on that vibe from this last weekend, and the test.
I've had sometime to think about somethings. I still think I need more. But to let you know Sarah you're not far from my thoughts, I've wanted to call but I really think I shouldn't right now. Just know I'd like to be able to have a friendship with you. But I have to make sure I'm doing it for the right reasons. I don't want to be 'that' guy, you know the one that is always looking like he wants to be that girls boyfriend in the movies but never can...kinda creepy fellow. Right now I'm still feeling like I'd be that guy, and that's not what you want, and it's not fair to me, and it's not right. So I need to just ...uh, I don't really know. But I know I need to think some more about things.
I'm tired of people feeling sorry for me. I've heard too many "poor nic" in the last couple of weeks...Thanks to those that have, but it's kind of a downer for me. I try and brush it off. But I know I still have many more obsticles to face. It's hard to keep your head up when so many people think I should be the one with my head on their shoulder crying. I appreciate it, But I don't think I'm at that stage yet. well I take that back. I am, Just attempting to do it differently.
I'm very Niave and gulible when it comes to relationships. I think someone said something like Love goggles. Not sure what that meant but it's an intresting comment to make. only seeing what you want to see. I'm not sure that was the implied intent. I want to believe that every girl I've met has been faithful, honest and caring towards me. (not intended to imply anything just saying it) ....don't know what I was getting at....damn it.
I'd like to think that a friendship with sarah is going to be good. But I still haven't made up my mind. But I want to let you know I don't hate you, Sarah. Dissapointed yes, but hatred... not even for a minute, this is what you feel.
I'd like to talk with you soon, and catch up. Actually I'd like to talk with you now. But I'm going to wait for awhile. It's still hard for me to believe this all happened.
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Next Fall
she says "good-bye" as she's leaving/ "i'll be back again next fall"/ but her eyes tell a different story/ if he'd look at them at all/ he says "even the best of eyes go blind/ and even i can be wrong sometimes"/ but he needed to believe/ it was meant to be/ he waves good-bye as she's leaving/ she'll be back again next fall/ he's pretty sure that he won't see her/ he's been there before that's all/ he thought about her every morning/ and the summer gave way to fall/ as he writes his final letter/ at that moment she calls/ she says "even the best of eyes go blind/ even i can be wrong sometimes/ so it took so long to see/it was meant to be"/ even the best of eyes go blind/ thank god I was wrong this time/ now it's clear to me/ it was meant to be